Horrible
Someone explain this to me-
You're supposed to be one of my three best friends. We met this guy together. We made plans with him, together. We agreed that we wouldn't just let him get between us and tear us apart. Then you go behind my back, let one of -our- good friends talk to him and pretend she was you?! Then you let her say stuff that I've already said to him on behalf of us both WITH your permission and he understood us? Are you kidding me? We agreed that we wouldn't let him choose one of us, we'd know how the other one felt and feel horrible for it. So tell me WHY YOU WENT BEHIND MY BACK AND DID THIS. Not only am I mad at you, I'm mad at her, too. She has a boyfriend. She shouldn't deal with our both liking this guy. She doesn't understand the Shannon thing like we do. She doesn't understand the Catie (I think that's how she spells it...) thing like we do. Hell I don't think you even understand the whole Shannon thing and the whole Catie thing like I do. Why do I understand the whole Shannon thing? I already knew Shannon. It was completely coincidental that we both knew Shannon. I've been friends with Shannon SINCE LAST DECEMBER, due to one of my other best friends, Lauren {whom I love to death and miss and HAVE TO HANG OUT WITH IN EARLY DECEMBER <3<3}. I don't even know if Shannon told you the whole story. She told me. Then there's the whole thing with Catie which might not work because of her dad. Now you tell me-did you know a bout any of this? Hell, he's not even completely over her. She knows it to. Doesn't mean they do anything about it. They both move on. That's what he's doing. Why do you think I haven't made a move? I prefer being friends with him instead of a lover, for plenty of good reasons. One of them being the age difference, another of them being that I understand exactly how he feels. It doesn't stop my mind from saying my thoughts, but it does stop me from chasing after him like a dog. Now all of our plans are screwed over, thank you very much.
I doubt I'm going to go to the Brew again any time soon. Every time I go, I end up being in a melancholy mood and desiring to cry. I refuse to let myself cry, however. I don't want my past to haunt me, and I won't let it haunt me. I grew up being the crybaby. I grew up being sensitive and getting hurt. Now you know why it's hard for me to trust people. That's all excluding the fact that you still like your exboyfriend even though you say you don't, and I could tell from your reactions. Are you true to yourself? That's what you need to do. Learn to be true to yourself, before talking to me.
Let me be alone. I'll dig my hole and go back into hiding. I was much safer that way. It avoids my headaches. I don't care if I'm depressed anymore. I've been fighting it since I was five years old. That's eleven years. Fuck off, let me be.
You're supposed to be one of my three best friends. We met this guy together. We made plans with him, together. We agreed that we wouldn't just let him get between us and tear us apart. Then you go behind my back, let one of -our- good friends talk to him and pretend she was you?! Then you let her say stuff that I've already said to him on behalf of us both WITH your permission and he understood us? Are you kidding me? We agreed that we wouldn't let him choose one of us, we'd know how the other one felt and feel horrible for it. So tell me WHY YOU WENT BEHIND MY BACK AND DID THIS. Not only am I mad at you, I'm mad at her, too. She has a boyfriend. She shouldn't deal with our both liking this guy. She doesn't understand the Shannon thing like we do. She doesn't understand the Catie (I think that's how she spells it...) thing like we do. Hell I don't think you even understand the whole Shannon thing and the whole Catie thing like I do. Why do I understand the whole Shannon thing? I already knew Shannon. It was completely coincidental that we both knew Shannon. I've been friends with Shannon SINCE LAST DECEMBER, due to one of my other best friends, Lauren {whom I love to death and miss and HAVE TO HANG OUT WITH IN EARLY DECEMBER <3<3}. I don't even know if Shannon told you the whole story. She told me. Then there's the whole thing with Catie which might not work because of her dad. Now you tell me-did you know a bout any of this? Hell, he's not even completely over her. She knows it to. Doesn't mean they do anything about it. They both move on. That's what he's doing. Why do you think I haven't made a move? I prefer being friends with him instead of a lover, for plenty of good reasons. One of them being the age difference, another of them being that I understand exactly how he feels. It doesn't stop my mind from saying my thoughts, but it does stop me from chasing after him like a dog. Now all of our plans are screwed over, thank you very much.
I doubt I'm going to go to the Brew again any time soon. Every time I go, I end up being in a melancholy mood and desiring to cry. I refuse to let myself cry, however. I don't want my past to haunt me, and I won't let it haunt me. I grew up being the crybaby. I grew up being sensitive and getting hurt. Now you know why it's hard for me to trust people. That's all excluding the fact that you still like your exboyfriend even though you say you don't, and I could tell from your reactions. Are you true to yourself? That's what you need to do. Learn to be true to yourself, before talking to me.
Let me be alone. I'll dig my hole and go back into hiding. I was much safer that way. It avoids my headaches. I don't care if I'm depressed anymore. I've been fighting it since I was five years old. That's eleven years. Fuck off, let me be.