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well i just dont get life nad people and who i can and cannot trust.. i guess rele u cant trust urself and thats all.
i seriously just wish i could snap my fingers nad everything be okay.. im sick of fighting with my mom.. im sick of my family thinking im such a bitch becuase i dont like my mother dating.. but u kno what they can all suck a fuckin cock because im over it and i cant stand them. they are never happy with anything i do .. there is always something that i am doing wrong.. and u kno what im to the point where i just want to be like o u guys think im a fuck up well let me just show u how much of a fuck up i rele can be. no person can ever just saying congrats for this or im so proud of u ... without a BUT afterwards. i am so fuckin over it all.
my mom needs to realize that how much the little ones need a father figure.. her other children need a mom there too.. and not one always catering to the neighbors and her bf and her other fuckin kids.. u kno .. it feels like i lost two parents.. not just one. i just cant win.. i wish and i hate saying this.. but i kinda wish i was never born or the others werent born. i try so hard to make everyone so happy and the more everyone else is happy the more unhappy i am and the more i jsut wish i was never here and wish i could just go away forever and ever.
i feel kinda like i am alone in this world.. like the people u think u can count on.. the family that is supposed to be there for u no matter what isnt even there.. i just hate how people say cheer up things will get better becuase realityt things get worse and nothing gets better. get a good education get outta the way u live.. do this do that.. but rele no matter how hard u try ur still a failure and ur still taht loser that u grew up as.. and yes i am embarrassed of my life becuase who would be proud of a drug, abusivce alcoholic father.. or a mother who seems to nto care anymore.. or the rest of the family calling u a bitch.. well last time i checked no one would be happy about that. but i guess im just weird.
i just want to run away forever and maybe eventually things will work out for me.. and if not well its the story of my life
i seriously just wish i could snap my fingers nad everything be okay.. im sick of fighting with my mom.. im sick of my family thinking im such a bitch becuase i dont like my mother dating.. but u kno what they can all suck a fuckin cock because im over it and i cant stand them. they are never happy with anything i do .. there is always something that i am doing wrong.. and u kno what im to the point where i just want to be like o u guys think im a fuck up well let me just show u how much of a fuck up i rele can be. no person can ever just saying congrats for this or im so proud of u ... without a BUT afterwards. i am so fuckin over it all.
my mom needs to realize that how much the little ones need a father figure.. her other children need a mom there too.. and not one always catering to the neighbors and her bf and her other fuckin kids.. u kno .. it feels like i lost two parents.. not just one. i just cant win.. i wish and i hate saying this.. but i kinda wish i was never born or the others werent born. i try so hard to make everyone so happy and the more everyone else is happy the more unhappy i am and the more i jsut wish i was never here and wish i could just go away forever and ever.
i feel kinda like i am alone in this world.. like the people u think u can count on.. the family that is supposed to be there for u no matter what isnt even there.. i just hate how people say cheer up things will get better becuase realityt things get worse and nothing gets better. get a good education get outta the way u live.. do this do that.. but rele no matter how hard u try ur still a failure and ur still taht loser that u grew up as.. and yes i am embarrassed of my life becuase who would be proud of a drug, abusivce alcoholic father.. or a mother who seems to nto care anymore.. or the rest of the family calling u a bitch.. well last time i checked no one would be happy about that. but i guess im just weird.
i just want to run away forever and maybe eventually things will work out for me.. and if not well its the story of my life