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I write sappy love songs to help pass time when I should be doing something productive. I dance and sing these days more than I have in ages. I can feel happiness all over me, in my fingertips and in my toes. My love songs remind me of the kind of feelings I want to be able to express. I realize that other people are what hassle you the most, but I love challenges and both positive and negative feedback from my friends. I was holding my keys in my hand for a couple seconds too long when I drove home today, and it took me a second to realize that on the other side of the phone, on the other side of the country every single night, there's something someone some beautiful person who wants me as much as I want them. It doesn't make any sense and it defies anything that anyone ever told me but I can delighted. Everything is falling into place in just the right way like life is some gigantic jig-saw puzzle. I'm not even halfway done but it seems to be working out pretty good.
I'm recording after we finish out second quarter in school. I can follow through with promises that I made ages and ages ago. I won't have to completely throw everything away anymore. I love all of my friends and I'm happy and healthy and smiling like I used to. I don't know why everything is so perfect so fast and it scares be but I won't let it go. I haven't typed anything so fast in my life, but I want to get this all out before it escapes me. I see Peter in the hallways and I know that we won't ever be able to rekindle the kind of friendship we had, and I know that he doesn't know how to cope with what has happened, but I'm thinking about me now. I've laid on the ground and let him walk all over me too many times. It's me-time and I'm happy about it. I'm growing stronger friendships and I'm using the internet less. Everything is wonderful. I don't really think that I could be happier.
Tonight I have to:
+ do laundry
+ do math project
+ go to the gym
+ do geosystems homework
+ study for AP Art test tomorrow morning
+ finish english book
It will be a late night,
but I don't mind.
I have my iPod and my smiles. I'll be fine.
I'm recording after we finish out second quarter in school. I can follow through with promises that I made ages and ages ago. I won't have to completely throw everything away anymore. I love all of my friends and I'm happy and healthy and smiling like I used to. I don't know why everything is so perfect so fast and it scares be but I won't let it go. I haven't typed anything so fast in my life, but I want to get this all out before it escapes me. I see Peter in the hallways and I know that we won't ever be able to rekindle the kind of friendship we had, and I know that he doesn't know how to cope with what has happened, but I'm thinking about me now. I've laid on the ground and let him walk all over me too many times. It's me-time and I'm happy about it. I'm growing stronger friendships and I'm using the internet less. Everything is wonderful. I don't really think that I could be happier.
Tonight I have to:
+ do laundry
+ do math project
+ go to the gym
+ do geosystems homework
+ study for AP Art test tomorrow morning
+ finish english book
It will be a late night,
but I don't mind.
I have my iPod and my smiles. I'll be fine.