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Last night Moon said we could start to talk about me going to Korea with him if I had a plan for living expenses....What?
I get that he's worried about that, but I've never and would never ask him to pay MY living expenses. Sure, he mainly ends up paying for dates right now, but...that's really not the same as paying someone's rent or cable bill. Plus, I pay as much as I can too. There's times where I've paid for entire evenings. If I made me more money, I'd definitely be more willing to totally split everything evenly.
Anyway, point is...I can get a working holiday visa for Korea and I wouldn't be able to go with him right away, but I could have enough with 2-3 extra months of working here. Especially while he's gone, because I would probably work every single opportunity I could, haha.
With a working holiday visa, he wouldn't be held accountable for me. If I went on a friend/family visa, then yes, he would. But if I couldn't afford my living expenses then...guess what! I'd go home!! It'd be shitty and all, but he's still in school. I wouldn't expect him to be responsible for me. I just don't know why he's so hung up on that part...It all just seems like an easy way out of it, a good excuse.
But, I honestly don't think he wants me to go. I really don't think he wants to be with me like that. I even asked him what he wanted from this relationship and he said "What I expect from you is just having good time as long as we can".
I am so fucking tired of always just being the "good time girl". Everyone can have fun with me, but nobody would ever want to be with me seriously. I've done research but I really don't want to make a big serious plan unless he is serious too. I don't wanna go through the trouble of going on my working holiday so soon if he isn't serious about me. If he just wants our "good time" to keep on going, then...he can find someone else to have a good time with.
We need to have an actual talk in person. But if we're not in the same place, then I think we have to break up. Unfortunately I am in too deep to really take it as something casual anymore. Dating someone when you care about them more really sucks ass.
I get that he's worried about that, but I've never and would never ask him to pay MY living expenses. Sure, he mainly ends up paying for dates right now, but...that's really not the same as paying someone's rent or cable bill. Plus, I pay as much as I can too. There's times where I've paid for entire evenings. If I made me more money, I'd definitely be more willing to totally split everything evenly.
Anyway, point is...I can get a working holiday visa for Korea and I wouldn't be able to go with him right away, but I could have enough with 2-3 extra months of working here. Especially while he's gone, because I would probably work every single opportunity I could, haha.
With a working holiday visa, he wouldn't be held accountable for me. If I went on a friend/family visa, then yes, he would. But if I couldn't afford my living expenses then...guess what! I'd go home!! It'd be shitty and all, but he's still in school. I wouldn't expect him to be responsible for me. I just don't know why he's so hung up on that part...It all just seems like an easy way out of it, a good excuse.
But, I honestly don't think he wants me to go. I really don't think he wants to be with me like that. I even asked him what he wanted from this relationship and he said "What I expect from you is just having good time as long as we can".
I am so fucking tired of always just being the "good time girl". Everyone can have fun with me, but nobody would ever want to be with me seriously. I've done research but I really don't want to make a big serious plan unless he is serious too. I don't wanna go through the trouble of going on my working holiday so soon if he isn't serious about me. If he just wants our "good time" to keep on going, then...he can find someone else to have a good time with.
We need to have an actual talk in person. But if we're not in the same place, then I think we have to break up. Unfortunately I am in too deep to really take it as something casual anymore. Dating someone when you care about them more really sucks ass.