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The Dream
Scared of the taste,
Of a single touch,
It holds me together.
So fast paced,
But slow enough,
Makes me feel better.
Adrenaline rushes,
It digs,
It's over.
I didn't mean to,
Not this time,
What had I done?
But it's what I did,
That I did so conceal,
A side of me now shown.
I'd known it,
Now they all know,
I watch as I hover.
I'm above myself now,
Enticed by the site,
For some reason happy.
Maybe it's over,
Maybe I'm okay,
Maybe I'm finally free.
I'm jolted,
I look at the ceiling,
I get out of bed.
A dream,
Thats all it was,
But it felt so real.
I could taste it,
See it all,
And how did I feel?
Happy, I thought,
As I grabbed my bags,
I walked out.
I'm on my way now,
And had but one thought:
Whats this life about?
I pondered that,
On the car ride,
To school once again.
Filled with rumors,
Filled with drugs,
Filled with pain.
Neverending,
Is what it seemed,
Ordinary,
To all but me.
I wanted it gone,
I wanted to leave.
But I couldn't...
This is reality.
This was my prison,
My most hated love,
And my dream,
It simply couldn't be.