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[kinkado]

the innocence mission > bright as yellowfoggy hot sickness i slept after you left or i left.. i hung up first right? i always do. thats my job. guess whaaat... right this moment im being productive for the first time all day. starting now - my homework. i think if i finish and if i sleep again ill be okay becuase i am okay... i ate dry dry dry

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[anonymous]

first i think thats so great. about the stories. i mean, im sorry you felt that way, and yes im familiar with the story. but i dont know...idont think you would have had to say anything. i mean i would have bugged you initially, but in the end i would have lain on your bed next to you, held you, and just.....ha. probably drift off to sleep, actually.

be asleep...im sorry, im not sleeping tonight either. not of my own choice, im just...not. ugh..my stomach. like i swlloed something. it reminds me so much of when you said "swallowed a nest of stars or bugs." its JUST like that.

hahaha im sorry if i repeated myself, resaying old things. i dont do that so much anymore now. im better.

Fantasia! yes! we must do that! i was going to stop by saturday, after i got bored of tims, but you really should work. sunday is great for me. though its a school night so i dont know how late i can stay...

friday. people can come here to my moms, watch a movie. Fight Club? then i can city bus you all back to your homes.

Liz is online...she tried to killherself. but shes back fom the hospital. ive never tried to kill myself. there wouldnt be any trying with that. if im actually going to ill myself....im nt going to like...TRY. thats just silly.

my mom was hungry so her and iwent to jack astors. i got a strawberry drink thing and ate bread. she got thai noodles. our water was the greatest. she hated the noodles. told him so. "ive never disliked anything as much as this" and he was all..."im sorry. im so sorry. i personally recommended them to you and i feel bad." so she didnt have to pay for them and i was horrified. i mean....if i really didnt like somehting THAT much i owuld say something but...i wouldnt lop of his head for it.

oh god. ha. im sorry. "lop". thats such a terrible word...

3:29 am. i have to go. should clean.

Goodnight.

[anonymous]

im fascinated by that...how one word....i think ive said this before. no, i have. i remember.

i really really miss you.
and i really really love you.
and i really really hope your sleeping...

all that in one word...goodnight.

[kinkado]

always two reallys.

[anonymous]

aha. hum...i hope i didnt make it seem like i expected you to post a comment. i mean...it has to nd some time. everything ends. we cnat comment back and forth forEVER! aaaaaaa....

did you get in trouble from friday? about not being home? i really liked that you went, but....hm...i cant see it being worth getting in trouble from parents.

always two reallys....depends on how you look at it... in some ways...there are many more reallys. just...inexpresible.

that made NO sense...at all..

[kinkado]

oh ho ho.
i wondered about that.
after making a three-word comment, i thought,
"brandons gonna look and see theres a new one and be all, *HEY THERES A NEW ONE* and then arrive to find not much of a new one at all" and it was followed by a pause. then a shrug.
ehh hahaha...
i did plan on commenting again.
but perhaps another post is in order.
i didnt get in trouble. not really. i was sent to bed! .
instead i stayed outside for awhile.
(and btw, it would have been worth it. it always is)
how did you get home from the school? (or to kyles from the school), did they pick you up there?
tell him i say hello.

i understood.

[kinkado]

thats boring.
instead - tell him i say hello and how are you?
or. NO.
maybe...
hello and .. coyotes!

[anonymous]

okay...this is my 7th attempt to reply to your comment. my first was ridiculously long and i deleted iot because it had nothing to with your comment. it was just...stuff i thought of last night at the party. i really really missed you...ill tell you about it later somehow. ill write you a note tonight. we're going out again.

my 6th attempt was pretty good. i was posting it and the borwser just....closed. gone. so...hm...

ill give kyle your greetings. he really likes you. he's not so well right now though, i cna answer that for you. thats why im here.

so many ways to interpret "i miss you"...i mean...hm...nm. i cnat...type. i jsut wnat you to be here. so badly. im going to go utside. kyles going to be back in about half an hour. and we're going out again...

no i was really happy to see you had commented again. because i really wnated to tlak with you. stupid because..now im leaving you. im sorry. its just...really hot here. and im really anxious. its the kind of anxious when there no tangible way of explaining why you wnat to just.....cry...

ill write you. a note. i dont wnat to type. im sorry. sorry.

[anonymous]

wow. im really sorry. i totally destroyed the fun behind this thread.

[kinkado]

fun is not the purpose.