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Seeds in the soil, water in the soil let's see what we can make.
Got back from PA and hopefully won't make that trip again for a good long while. Things are going well enough I think, there, on that front. Content with the flow of things, it's fine - work, job, stuff - it's persistent but never urgent - it's taking a long time to reconfigure my thoughts & expectations but it's a good job & I'm glad I have it.
Home is where I want to be & I don't know. There's that part of me, of anyone probably, who fantasizes about a better or superior version of yourself & that it'll be liberated to act at some point when your impediments are diminished. That's a thing that I think most people have in mind - how they'd excel if given the opportunity. I think having a house is basically my opportunity so I'm doing what I can to make the most of it, to turn it around & make it how I want it to be. Or how I think it'd be better. Pretty sure no amount of yard work will eliminate motor traffic & pets so, just with what I can actually fix.
Plants are a whole thing. I don't want to have grass, the number 1 crop in the US - I don't want to farm it. Looking at alternatives - there's a few in my neighborhood alone - ground cover & flower beds - I think I can? I'll work on it, steadily. I got rakes. Trash bins too. No mower. Not gonna either. Maybe a push mower? I tried my luck at finding a lawn provider online & ended up with hal fthe population of the Philippines calling me to explain that they can't do what I need but will do so much more for excessive money & a commitment to their service. Pretty infuriating phone queuing system - bad sales/crm design. I assume that the different services that opt in to the underlying app have poor results. They should. Anyway I've been driven to buy a mower & probably will push one around until I can figure out a plant instead of grass to grow.
Patio, that's on the horizon. Installed towel racks. Fixed hot water, have a shelf of tools. Working on it, that's all. Maybe forever. That's alright. I always wanted a house of my own, I'll make the best of it. That's just how it all goes right now. I figured to care about my house & make it a project. Always something to do.
Bird Feeders. Put those out today, subscribed to seed delivery - I figure that's a helpful way of reminding yourself to do things - the new birdseed appeared - better refill them. That's kind of the cadence I'm aiming for.
Long ago I lived in Parma, home of the extremely cheap & old person. You know, the original one. I had a store there & never sold one thing without there was a coupon attached - cheapskates & chiselers & all so, so old. When you live in a spot like that you learn patience because you're in a line wherever you end up - people are cutting out coupons, getting their golden buckeye cards, AARP, just complaining to the kid at the counter - whatever, they're taking their cheap-old time & you may as well get used to it. But you'd see in those encounters that there's an old man - unassuming, you wouldn't look too closely at him & what he's doing but he does have a cart full of birthday party themed paper plates napkins & hats - all of it & for a party of maybe a thousand people? I'm a little perplexed & just say - "You gonna have a lot of people over for your birthday man?" He says that it's all on sale and he's got a coupon for half off besides & so he's getting all the birthday part stuff they have so he'll have it. Never run out, always have some in a plastic bin with raised letter labels printed on them. Maybe that's a real way to live - maybe a skill you get over time - just having what you need, being ready - living the seasons like that, with all you require on demand.
Then again the dude is probably a maniac right? Hoarder? What's the right way to live? Never an answer right, but you look for the parts you like & ape them.
Trying for a gradient on the door. You never see a gradient. I'm thinking orange into red. Maybe green into blue or blue into purple for the back door.