I should use this more.
This site is so slow aaaa.
I don't really know what to say. My life has been uninteresting. I wake up, go on a run, come back and lift weights, shower, brush teeth, eat breakfast, then computer for like 2-4 hours, eat lunch, then computer for 2-4 hours, then dinner. The computer for 4-6 hours.
I've been watching X-Men Evolution cartoons from like 2000-2004. It's a good show, but Wolverine never does anything because they can't show blood and cuts and stuff. Eh. It doesn't get too great until Season 3.
Lately I spend a lot of my time in League of Legends and World of Warcraft. I like WoW, but I can see why people wouldn't like it. Personally I don't find it addictive at all, I play like an hour at most before getting bored. I made a Tauren warrior. Taurens are the cow people. I enjoy running around and seeing cow-related puns. I'm only level 16, but I'm taking the ride slow and smooth. I hope I don't need to buy the expansions soon, though. That is a lot of money.
Speaking of money, I am very short on funds. I've been thinking of trying to bake things and sell them at church, but I'm a little scared to do that since I'm very antisocial, unmotivated, and afraid of being talked to at church. I don't know why. I wish I could be more social. Most of my conversations consist of yeah or nah. I don't really know how to interact with someone. I find myself terribly uninterested in what people have to say. When people I don't know talk to me, it's kind of like "ok yeah now you can shut up i really don't care" but obviously I'm not gonna say that, so I opt for the "Yeah yeah *headnod* option. I find myself doing this to my sister lately now too, who is a total chatterbox and hits up random strangers with amazing conversational skills. I really wish I was more like her, she makes friends wherever she goes, and has so many opportunities in life just because of her social skills. I'm envious of her. When she talks to me, I have no idea what to even say to her. Sometimes she delves way too deep and tries to find out more about me and my life, and I'm very uncomfortable with that. One time she asked to know about my internet friends. I'm not gonna tell anyone about my internet friends! What am I even supposed to say? She wanted to know if I wanted to meet anyone(of course I do, I'm lonely) or if I had already met some(which I have but would never admit). Augh I cannot stand her, I absolutely hate when people delve into my personal matters. I don't delve into theirs, why should they delve into mine?
With starting to exercise and stuff, I feel a lot happier and better about myself. Better than I have in years really. I sleep better, and can go to bed at any time at all and wake up and be absolutely great. I love exercise! I don't know why I didn't start earlier.
I wish I had money to support my habit of collecting video games I'll never play. I want to buy Other M even though I'll probably not get to it for years. I'd love to move out, too. I can't wait to go to OSU, I think going into a dorm would help fix all of my social inept problems.
I can't wait for school to start on september 27. It's gonna OOOOOOWNNNNNNNNNNNN.
I see Remy on the 17th! I cannot wait but I am super nervous because I am gonna be gone all day long and I need a good excuse for my parents. It's really bothering me, and Remy doesn't seem to understand how horrible it is for me to lie to them and stuff. I hate it so much, I wish I could just invite him to my house for a week and they would love him, but that's not the cast. Ughhh I wish I had cooler parents. I mean, my parents are pretty great; They pay my insurance, gave me a car, they feed me, give me money occasionally, all kinds of stuff. I do love them a lot, but I just wish they weren't so awful about the whole gay thing. It's so irritating it makes me want to cry right now. I wish Remy understood how hard it is for me to do this kind of stuff, he's really inconsiderate about it.. He doesn't seem to realize how much I love safety, I hate popping out of my bubble and having a slight chance of danger. It is why I hate rollercoasters and ski lifts and skateboarding and football and ferris wheels and guns and weapons all kinds of stuff that I shouldn't be afraid of. I also hate hate HATE freeway driving, it is so unsafe and I feel like my wheels are going to fly off of my car at any moment, or my car will rip off of the road and crash into the barrier. I wish Remy would be able to meet my parents. My mom would love him.
Man when I type shit like this it makes me go "Man I hate life." But I don't, I feel relatively happy.
I don't really know what to say. My life has been uninteresting. I wake up, go on a run, come back and lift weights, shower, brush teeth, eat breakfast, then computer for like 2-4 hours, eat lunch, then computer for 2-4 hours, then dinner. The computer for 4-6 hours.
I've been watching X-Men Evolution cartoons from like 2000-2004. It's a good show, but Wolverine never does anything because they can't show blood and cuts and stuff. Eh. It doesn't get too great until Season 3.
Lately I spend a lot of my time in League of Legends and World of Warcraft. I like WoW, but I can see why people wouldn't like it. Personally I don't find it addictive at all, I play like an hour at most before getting bored. I made a Tauren warrior. Taurens are the cow people. I enjoy running around and seeing cow-related puns. I'm only level 16, but I'm taking the ride slow and smooth. I hope I don't need to buy the expansions soon, though. That is a lot of money.
Speaking of money, I am very short on funds. I've been thinking of trying to bake things and sell them at church, but I'm a little scared to do that since I'm very antisocial, unmotivated, and afraid of being talked to at church. I don't know why. I wish I could be more social. Most of my conversations consist of yeah or nah. I don't really know how to interact with someone. I find myself terribly uninterested in what people have to say. When people I don't know talk to me, it's kind of like "ok yeah now you can shut up i really don't care" but obviously I'm not gonna say that, so I opt for the "Yeah yeah *headnod* option. I find myself doing this to my sister lately now too, who is a total chatterbox and hits up random strangers with amazing conversational skills. I really wish I was more like her, she makes friends wherever she goes, and has so many opportunities in life just because of her social skills. I'm envious of her. When she talks to me, I have no idea what to even say to her. Sometimes she delves way too deep and tries to find out more about me and my life, and I'm very uncomfortable with that. One time she asked to know about my internet friends. I'm not gonna tell anyone about my internet friends! What am I even supposed to say? She wanted to know if I wanted to meet anyone(of course I do, I'm lonely) or if I had already met some(which I have but would never admit). Augh I cannot stand her, I absolutely hate when people delve into my personal matters. I don't delve into theirs, why should they delve into mine?
With starting to exercise and stuff, I feel a lot happier and better about myself. Better than I have in years really. I sleep better, and can go to bed at any time at all and wake up and be absolutely great. I love exercise! I don't know why I didn't start earlier.
I wish I had money to support my habit of collecting video games I'll never play. I want to buy Other M even though I'll probably not get to it for years. I'd love to move out, too. I can't wait to go to OSU, I think going into a dorm would help fix all of my social inept problems.
I can't wait for school to start on september 27. It's gonna OOOOOOWNNNNNNNNNNNN.
I see Remy on the 17th! I cannot wait but I am super nervous because I am gonna be gone all day long and I need a good excuse for my parents. It's really bothering me, and Remy doesn't seem to understand how horrible it is for me to lie to them and stuff. I hate it so much, I wish I could just invite him to my house for a week and they would love him, but that's not the cast. Ughhh I wish I had cooler parents. I mean, my parents are pretty great; They pay my insurance, gave me a car, they feed me, give me money occasionally, all kinds of stuff. I do love them a lot, but I just wish they weren't so awful about the whole gay thing. It's so irritating it makes me want to cry right now. I wish Remy understood how hard it is for me to do this kind of stuff, he's really inconsiderate about it.. He doesn't seem to realize how much I love safety, I hate popping out of my bubble and having a slight chance of danger. It is why I hate rollercoasters and ski lifts and skateboarding and football and ferris wheels and guns and weapons all kinds of stuff that I shouldn't be afraid of. I also hate hate HATE freeway driving, it is so unsafe and I feel like my wheels are going to fly off of my car at any moment, or my car will rip off of the road and crash into the barrier. I wish Remy would be able to meet my parents. My mom would love him.
Man when I type shit like this it makes me go "Man I hate life." But I don't, I feel relatively happy.