Just ignore me already. After this I can handle it.
Right. This is like millionth time I start writing this. I don't know why, but I have so much to say, but the words are failing me. Or then they aren't and I just don't know how to use them anymore ^^;; But aaanyway, I'm feeling rather sulky at the moment. Actually, I would really like to be dancing right now and having fun right now and, y'know, being young and all. But all my friends are other side of the country and I'm alone because I have my work and other boring stuff going on here. Not fair!
...And I'm feeling like this because of some man. Because he didn't notice (ignored?) me today (That annoying little voice in my mind says: WRONG! He would have noticed you, but you were too much of a bitch to let him have a chance and say something...). And I know that I'm overreacting and all, but OMG WHAT IF HE HATES ME? This is pathetic. Really. And not only because my heart skips a beat every time I see him and I have to will my hands not to shake every time I see him and I just become so damn happy every time I see him (Can I say one more time 'every time I see him'? Please?), but because I don't even really know the man! Yeah, I know.
Next weekend something has to happen. That night is going to be full of miracles (Hear that, karma or destiny or faith or whatever, I haven't ever asked anything, so would it be so bad if just this once everything would go as I want??).
This makes no sense, I know.
Thank you and good night.