Enternal Sunshine
is harder and harder to watch everytime I see it. I can't imagine how many times a entry starts off with this but it brings those things that stick in ur mind for enternitity. It see like There has been only one time in my life when I felt like I was truelly living. Its been up this time 3 years ago. I miss it, I wasn't pretending. I was myself with nobody judging. Friends seem to be close and the absolute cynanism that invades us all seemed to be non-existence. Anyway, I will be graduating soon and I am looking forward to a exetremly dull existence. I miss not having a steady gf and lack of control. Any suggestions if anybody reads this anyway