Obligatory and pre-promised essay rant

[kingom_of_ur]

I seriously doubt I can I dont know... do anything at all right now... I am numb in my head and feel like I could become quite ill quite soon. Damn a tee damn damn essay... did it to myself... but still. dosent matter, I just feel... very distant... more so then I would have thought likley. Then again tonight has been... really really weird. I have never laughed hysteircally until my teeth, arms and legs went numb before... And it was at a terriable time too... in direct response to a highly stressful situation. Wow... I am so... I dont know... surprised I can write this right now... I feel sick and should be in bed and should skip school tomorrow but I know I wont because of the sheer number of assignments I have to take responsibility for that are due in the morning. Told you I would rant. But thats ok. I forgive you for questioning my motives. Hahahaha... yeah... I am not here and think I could physically pass out right now. I hope not... cause it could be painful. But yeah... I am getting back to this now, and if you read this I once more apologize cause it is a waste of space and time and yeah... Im being an emo little bitchy person. deal with it. HAH. I havent had a night like this in a while... like one where I am THIS zorched and fried and tired and out of it... hahahahahahaha wow... I probably sound kind of high or something... but thing being is that stress and sleep deprivation can have many of the exact effects as various narcotics. All natural ya know.... sheesh... I think im going to remember this night for a while... at least on my imfamy list for freakyness and all that jazz. Heh... well yeah... this is a true rant and truly incoherent but I already said that now didnt I? dude... heh... I really should delete this before anyone reads it but I think it feels better if they do but hahahah... I promise the next entry will not how do you put it... suck? Yeah... Suck is a good word. LOLOL... it is all really funny to me right now and I dont know why.

BTW I promise I am fully Sain during the writing of this, just... not alltogeather you know... other stuff.

~CM