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I am twitchy, and really want to rant. While some believe LJ is the place for it, I will sound far too cliche for my own good and just taint all of your eardrums with angst. By eardrums, I mean eyes that gaze upon the dribble. I am sinking into academia in order to chase away the "everything". The vice versa could be said, that I sink into the "everything" to get out of doing homework. But I wont say that. That would be silly. I am even seriously contemplating the prospect of a PhD in my future and the subsequent "professordom". What sort of a life is that? Not a bad one. I feel as if I am sinking into the profession of teaching in one form or another. HS or college. I dont care. It dosent seem like a bad gig, though I would take professor over HS. They get more money, prestige, and more serious students with a more serious desire to learn. I am also realizing that I want very very badly to be a published writer. I do not want people to harp on me to "just write" my book for the time being. I want to rather badly, but I very literally dont have time. Between school and... well... school, I have exactly enough creative energy to keep up with all my classes and write approx an essay every other week or so. (The solution btw was to write a 10 and a half page essay when it was supposed to be 4, and do it 100% creative to the point I worry about my grade)
I discovered a slight catch 22 with teaching+getting higher education. If you have a masters you get paid more as a schoolteacher. You are also very hard to hire. Solution? Get a job teaching THEN get a masters on the side. That is the easy part. The problem arises when I decide "hey, I want to go for that golden apple of a PhD, but I am teaching". While it is in fact possible to get a masters while holding down a full time job... I have my serious doubts whether or not a PhD is as easy to come by. I fear only that I would be faced with the choice of either A) quite my job teaching to go for a "maybe" on success PhD wise, then after that not be able to be re-hired due to vast over education. or B)dont try and stay in a safe and comfortable world. It is a suck-tacular situation. Also of note... If I actually end up with the whole teacher's thing, I will have to move far and away, cause jobs suck hiring wise around here. So yeah. (not that I want to live here my whole life anyway...) Creepy cause I am a Junior now... aka I could graduate in like a couple years (yeah right, try 3-4) but still, close enough to be seriously thinking about it. Either way though... I am going for a master's as soon as i graduate, just... hopefully I can get a job first. Bah. There is too much to do in this world and just one me.
~Me
I discovered a slight catch 22 with teaching+getting higher education. If you have a masters you get paid more as a schoolteacher. You are also very hard to hire. Solution? Get a job teaching THEN get a masters on the side. That is the easy part. The problem arises when I decide "hey, I want to go for that golden apple of a PhD, but I am teaching". While it is in fact possible to get a masters while holding down a full time job... I have my serious doubts whether or not a PhD is as easy to come by. I fear only that I would be faced with the choice of either A) quite my job teaching to go for a "maybe" on success PhD wise, then after that not be able to be re-hired due to vast over education. or B)dont try and stay in a safe and comfortable world. It is a suck-tacular situation. Also of note... If I actually end up with the whole teacher's thing, I will have to move far and away, cause jobs suck hiring wise around here. So yeah. (not that I want to live here my whole life anyway...) Creepy cause I am a Junior now... aka I could graduate in like a couple years (yeah right, try 3-4) but still, close enough to be seriously thinking about it. Either way though... I am going for a master's as soon as i graduate, just... hopefully I can get a job first. Bah. There is too much to do in this world and just one me.
~Me