Warning: Long winded rant about my life

[kingom_of_ur]

Wow... it is impressive how fast anger and frustration dissolves. I refuse to rant further on this topic, but only time will tell... and I have to go do some homework... business homework to be exact. The worst monster on the face of the earth. Also of note, I have abandoned my plans to take a business minor that chris implanted in my brain. This is due to the cranial bludgeoning by katy, and my innate insecurities with the plan in the first place. The practical approach that chris suggested was important and I have implemented the lack of business and the presence of practicality to create the massive and magical English major with a minor (in ?Art?Psychology?other?) but also a teaching certificate to blather my ramblings to the young and impressionable. I figure I can teach HS while I am getting a masters degree/and/or/PhD to you know... pay for it. I have ultimate goals to teach college, but Highschool is not a bad compromise. I fear tremendously... my greatest fear in this endeavor is that I will become so distracted with the reality of work and the closeness of teaching what I love that I will stop writing on my own and fall into the trap of changing from a writer that teaches to a teacher that writes. If this happens I will have lost my way, and will have a terrible mid-life-crisis and probably start shooting puppies out of cannons to see if I can shoot down passing blimps at baseball games. Freaking real world. It likes to squish things. I have every intention of surviving in it, and getting done the things that need doing. Although unless I continue to transform, the creature that is me will never be strong enough to do so. (I am so close to a rebirth of self as a new and colder but more powerful, driven and accomplished version of myself that I can almost taste it.) I need it, and I need to forsake my distractions in their entireity in order to do so. I am now officially stopping this rant before it gets even further out of hand, or decided to grow a mind of its own and start reproducing. I should update this thing more often, I would talk less.

~Charlemagne