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for times that require certain responses on your part, is it best just to respond and that be the end of it? or is it best to respond and then speak your mind about the subject. the reason i ask is because of the situation i am about to brief you on:
Ok so i moved in with one of marcy's friends boyfriends, right? in some trailer in ocean springs... this started out friendly, and suddenly about a month or so ago got ugly, about the time they started having sex every night and i could not go to sleep because of it. another thing was the nightly partying. it was hampering me with their partys taking up the whole night, and into the morning sometimes. when i have to work in the morning and have no time to get dressed and leave because i get no sleep it pisses me off. That and the whole part about the girl has a kid, and he used to be big into the drug world, and claimed to get out of it, but really didnt, as i found out right before i left. Being in teh military is something that has kinda forced me to do some things i would not normally do. Fortunately for me, i got out of there relatively soon. before many things got messed up. while i was there, me and Marcy got into a couple fights, that were brought on with my being away from her. i told the guy i was renting from some lies that were part of me trying to have a bigger male ego, of course. i have realized this, and tried to admit my problems. with my ego comes my obsession about having to always be right. in everything i do, i must be on top. in relationships this can be a problem, especially when you already clash with your partner, in one thing or another. i screwed up after a fight that i had with marcy and went out with the renter because it was his idea and i wanted to get my mind off the pain. the girl with the baby had a friend who came over. i was kinda buzzed, or wasted, i dont remember. either way, some words came out of my mouth that were flirtacious and since then, marcy found out, No, i did nothing with the girl, but the point still stands that i talked to her. i have admitted my wrongdoing to marcy, but this piles on top of arguments and other instances, and problems that the renter and the girl he is with started. One of the partys that he had, involved some of his old high school friends, who he apparently did stuff with beforehand. I saw some stuff go on which i did want no part of. i just wanted a vodka drink, but i walk in on a romance session with the renter and an old high school friend. As soon as i walk in, he says," if you tell anyone about this, ill tell marcy about the time you went to florida and did the stuff with that chick." this is the ego story i made up, that i did something with someone in florida. it was a stupid move on my part, but it was said nonetheless. I felt it an obligation to tell his girlfriend about the kiss that i saw, and the shit hits teh fan with all four of us. arguments fly and words are said that are overreactions. an inevitable fight happens with me and marcy, because the guy i was renting from tells marcy the story i told him about florida. i stress to her that it was a lie i told him, no bit of it truth, but because of past actions on both our parts, a seed is planted in her head and she refuses to believe it as a lie. The girlfriend of my ex renter refuses to believe what i SAW instead believes her boyfriend, who is trying to cover his ass by telling monica, the girl who he screwed with by kissing her while dating his girlfriend. What am i supposed to do? tonight i have to go get money from him adn just found out that monica will be there, and they will confront me about the whole thign. She will probably lie for him, to save her own ass, and not tell the truth. i will be put out as a liar, no doubt, and will have no future as friends with any of them. how is this supposed to end? am i supposed to get the shit boot? am i supposed to realize something about my own life? well leave me a response please. im going crazy here thinking about this. thanks for reading my problems and trying to help me understand them. later
Ok so i moved in with one of marcy's friends boyfriends, right? in some trailer in ocean springs... this started out friendly, and suddenly about a month or so ago got ugly, about the time they started having sex every night and i could not go to sleep because of it. another thing was the nightly partying. it was hampering me with their partys taking up the whole night, and into the morning sometimes. when i have to work in the morning and have no time to get dressed and leave because i get no sleep it pisses me off. That and the whole part about the girl has a kid, and he used to be big into the drug world, and claimed to get out of it, but really didnt, as i found out right before i left. Being in teh military is something that has kinda forced me to do some things i would not normally do. Fortunately for me, i got out of there relatively soon. before many things got messed up. while i was there, me and Marcy got into a couple fights, that were brought on with my being away from her. i told the guy i was renting from some lies that were part of me trying to have a bigger male ego, of course. i have realized this, and tried to admit my problems. with my ego comes my obsession about having to always be right. in everything i do, i must be on top. in relationships this can be a problem, especially when you already clash with your partner, in one thing or another. i screwed up after a fight that i had with marcy and went out with the renter because it was his idea and i wanted to get my mind off the pain. the girl with the baby had a friend who came over. i was kinda buzzed, or wasted, i dont remember. either way, some words came out of my mouth that were flirtacious and since then, marcy found out, No, i did nothing with the girl, but the point still stands that i talked to her. i have admitted my wrongdoing to marcy, but this piles on top of arguments and other instances, and problems that the renter and the girl he is with started. One of the partys that he had, involved some of his old high school friends, who he apparently did stuff with beforehand. I saw some stuff go on which i did want no part of. i just wanted a vodka drink, but i walk in on a romance session with the renter and an old high school friend. As soon as i walk in, he says," if you tell anyone about this, ill tell marcy about the time you went to florida and did the stuff with that chick." this is the ego story i made up, that i did something with someone in florida. it was a stupid move on my part, but it was said nonetheless. I felt it an obligation to tell his girlfriend about the kiss that i saw, and the shit hits teh fan with all four of us. arguments fly and words are said that are overreactions. an inevitable fight happens with me and marcy, because the guy i was renting from tells marcy the story i told him about florida. i stress to her that it was a lie i told him, no bit of it truth, but because of past actions on both our parts, a seed is planted in her head and she refuses to believe it as a lie. The girlfriend of my ex renter refuses to believe what i SAW instead believes her boyfriend, who is trying to cover his ass by telling monica, the girl who he screwed with by kissing her while dating his girlfriend. What am i supposed to do? tonight i have to go get money from him adn just found out that monica will be there, and they will confront me about the whole thign. She will probably lie for him, to save her own ass, and not tell the truth. i will be put out as a liar, no doubt, and will have no future as friends with any of them. how is this supposed to end? am i supposed to get the shit boot? am i supposed to realize something about my own life? well leave me a response please. im going crazy here thinking about this. thanks for reading my problems and trying to help me understand them. later