meh
well this is my first live journal on mah new sn. i dont know how often ill update but ill try to do it when something important happens. ne ways id just like to say Hi and stuff and that life is pretty crappy for me. like in my bio the only girl/person i desperately want in my life is out of my reach right now, and im risking my life, sanity, and my entire emotional psyche on her and her love for me. so if she should happen to die or fail me, id be goin down with her. life used to be pretty ok but lately it seems that nothing i do can bring me back up to that OK-ness. im gonna try harder though. so ill post again if i find it