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gosh i love being the happiest damn person in conyers.
i hate being depressed. i fucking left the damn soccer game early which we won 4-0 and i went to fucking annsbrooke pool swing set whurr me and amanda talked. what the fuck i had to leave early cuz i couldnt hold in the crying. its hard to drive while crying hysterically. i just sat on the fuckin swings for like 45 min. crying. i was fucking sitting at the game. never felt so alone in my whole fucking life. oh wait i have...almost every damn day of my miserable life. i was fine when i got to the damn game then my lil homie beans told me her madre doesnt want her to hang out with me cuz she heard i smoke pot. fuck parents. you stupid fucking assholes judging me. fuck you all. ill fuckin smoke pot and do fuckin blow on a daily basis i dont fucking give a shit what in the fuck you think. you stupid fucking bastards looking down on me for doing drugs and drinking. i dont fucking care if i od or die in a car accident from being drunk i wont drive drunk tho cuz i dont wanna hurt ne one else. fuck you all. i only smoke pot and do blow cuz it lets me fucking get away from this piece of shit lifefor a little bit of time and that is the only time im really happy. fuck you if you look down on me cuz i dont give a shit. ill do what in the fuck i wanna do. i dont fucking care if i get hurt doing it. if i died nothing would fucking change nobody would be affected. i felt so fucking alone at that damn game like i wasnt evcen fucking there. not even my "best friend" would look me in the eyes much less talk to me. im fucking depressed as shit n if you dont wanna hear about this then dont fuckin read it. so that pretty much means nobody will fuckin read ithaha oh fucking well. you know what if none of my "friends" wanna have anything to do wit me thats fine ill just be fuckin depressed and alone until i break and kill myself. haha then the joke will be on you. you stupid fucking jackasses. ive always said i want somebody. i want somebody to be there that i can cry on but i dont anymore. ive realized if anybody wanted to be a good friend like that they would have been by fucking now. all you assholes who say ill be there for you anytime and never are ever fucking around fuck you. weed and blow and alcohol are indeed the only things that are ALWAYS fucking there no matter what. i feel like a fuckin bitch just cryin about all this shit but oh fuckin well. well i guess ill just go now this is long as shit. and if you read this amanda u made my day bringin me lunch yo my own fucking sister wont do that because shes too fucking embarrased to be related to me. i didnt think i was that bad but i guess the fuck i am. oh and to all the boys soccer players congrats.
i hate being depressed. i fucking left the damn soccer game early which we won 4-0 and i went to fucking annsbrooke pool swing set whurr me and amanda talked. what the fuck i had to leave early cuz i couldnt hold in the crying. its hard to drive while crying hysterically. i just sat on the fuckin swings for like 45 min. crying. i was fucking sitting at the game. never felt so alone in my whole fucking life. oh wait i have...almost every damn day of my miserable life. i was fine when i got to the damn game then my lil homie beans told me her madre doesnt want her to hang out with me cuz she heard i smoke pot. fuck parents. you stupid fucking assholes judging me. fuck you all. ill fuckin smoke pot and do fuckin blow on a daily basis i dont fucking give a shit what in the fuck you think. you stupid fucking bastards looking down on me for doing drugs and drinking. i dont fucking care if i od or die in a car accident from being drunk i wont drive drunk tho cuz i dont wanna hurt ne one else. fuck you all. i only smoke pot and do blow cuz it lets me fucking get away from this piece of shit lifefor a little bit of time and that is the only time im really happy. fuck you if you look down on me cuz i dont give a shit. ill do what in the fuck i wanna do. i dont fucking care if i get hurt doing it. if i died nothing would fucking change nobody would be affected. i felt so fucking alone at that damn game like i wasnt evcen fucking there. not even my "best friend" would look me in the eyes much less talk to me. im fucking depressed as shit n if you dont wanna hear about this then dont fuckin read it. so that pretty much means nobody will fuckin read ithaha oh fucking well. you know what if none of my "friends" wanna have anything to do wit me thats fine ill just be fuckin depressed and alone until i break and kill myself. haha then the joke will be on you. you stupid fucking jackasses. ive always said i want somebody. i want somebody to be there that i can cry on but i dont anymore. ive realized if anybody wanted to be a good friend like that they would have been by fucking now. all you assholes who say ill be there for you anytime and never are ever fucking around fuck you. weed and blow and alcohol are indeed the only things that are ALWAYS fucking there no matter what. i feel like a fuckin bitch just cryin about all this shit but oh fuckin well. well i guess ill just go now this is long as shit. and if you read this amanda u made my day bringin me lunch yo my own fucking sister wont do that because shes too fucking embarrased to be related to me. i didnt think i was that bad but i guess the fuck i am. oh and to all the boys soccer players congrats.