2009: In Brief & 2010 Resolutions**
2009: In BriefSo 2009, in brief, was another year. It was neither a good year nor really a bad year. Most of the year has just disappeared from my memory. A series of repetitious events and habits that make up any sort of daily life. Nothing special, nothing exciting. Just going to school, doing homework, having fun with my friends and watching a lot of movies. A lot of movies.
Seriously people, a lot of movies.
But there have been a few events that have stood out for the year for me. Most of them are personal and would probably be considered insignificant by most standards. For me though, they're very important and I'd like to acknowledge them here.
(1) Feb. 2009 - My grandmother passed away. She was the last of my living grand parents and the last real shred of attachment I had to California. She died of Lung Cancer at 72 years old. I am a lot like my grandmother and we had been very close growing up. It was hard to have her go and I still miss her very much. That being said, however, I realize that where she is now is 1000x better than where she was before. My grandmother believed in reincarnation so I hope that's what happened to her. She needs to find my grandfather again, they both need each other.
(2) Mar. 2009 - My brother moved back to Wisconsin. I hope he leaves soon.
(3) Jul. 2009 - Made new friends with the JACS guys. Initially, they'd been friends with Lynn who painted us in a very bad light. They only knew one side of the story and that side was generally that we were serious bitches (we are), who hate everyone and were selfish and mean. I don't think the JACS guys disliked us, but they definitely were not our friends. Then through a series of coincidences, Panda reconnected with Andy (through Katka) and through Panda, the rest of us were able to make friends with them as well. It was pretty awesome.
(4) Aug./Sep. 2009 - Rhi went to Japan and Panda went to Scotland. Which was amazing for them. For me it was the first time in ... like 3 years that they hadn't been around. I thought it was going to be really rough, especially without Rhi seeing as how we've been glued at the hip since we met our Freshman year. It was actually nice for the most part, though it did occasionally become difficult. I'm glad that they're back even if I know they aren't totally happy to be back. That's life, I suppose.
(5) Dec. 2009 - I realized that I have gained a lot lot lot of confidence over this passed year. I am a really amazing, nice, funny, intelligent, genuine, honest person. I have an absolutely amazazing personality and would not change anything about me, except being more social. That being said, I do have a long way to go in the confidence field.
(6) Dec. 2009 - I asked for the number of the guy I liked. Now, I just need to get ballsy enough to call.
New Years/Decades' Resolution
The following list are a collection of the major resolutions for the following year and really, for the new decade. This is technically my fourth decade so I need to make the most of it. I don't want to get too specific in my resolutions, but not too general either. Right now, I don't know how I'm going to tackle them, but I'm working on it. At least one, I have some attack strategy laid out for. Hopefully they'll work.
(1) Love myself more - Not like that you perverts! I need to learn that I actually AM a special snowflake (So is everyone else when you really get down to it), even if my life experiences aren't particularly unique. There is only one me and I need to learn to love everything about me. This includes the way that I look. I'm not some moving beauty, but I am pretty. I have a decent, somewhat unique sense of fashion, I'm smart, funny and nice. I'm a little over weight, but compared to how I USED to look, It is soooo much better. I am totally awesome and I need to love myself that much more for it.
(2) Be healthier - I need to start going in for regular check ups at the doctor now that I have insurance. I should also look into a Dental Discount plan but I can worry about that later. The most important aspect of this resolution is simply to eat better and exercise more. Rhi and I are planning on joining a gym (we're going to talk to them on monday) and eating more veggies/fruit and less processed carbs and sugars. The goal is not to lose twenty pounds or anything like that. If that is a side effect, awesome. But I am trying to shift my way of thinking to something a bit more...... practical for me. Being healthy. If I'm healthy and still fat, then that's cool. But if I'm unhealthy and still fat than I need to change that.
(3) Stop relying on shopping to make me happy. I hate having stuff. I have too much stuff that I never use. So I spend money on it and then never use it. Not exactly uh...practical now is it? No, I thought not as well. Then I just feel overwhelmed by stuff. Now, I'm not going to strip my stuff down to NICOLE'S minimalist style. (I like having stuff on my walls and it's SOOO annoying that they're SO bare right now!), but I'd like to be able to display some of the things I own and have them be noticable. Like the beautiful Kokeshi and Nesting dolls Rhi got me in Japan.
(4) I'd like to start a new hobby or collection. But wait, isn't that counter intuitive to the whole NOT buying stuff?! What I mean specifically is that I want to start collecting something worth some value, something that I love and that I actually have to work to collect. It could be Kokeshi Dolls, Ball Joint Dolls, Matryoshka... maybe just wooden dolls (to make it a bit more open). I'd love to do BJDs, but they're really expensive and I need to save up for more important things right now. But Wooden Dolls are really a perfect comprimise. They range in price with good ones being a little more expensive and worth the purchase price.
(5) I'd like to learn to crotchet. I want to learn to make Amigurumi, which is apparently really simple once you get down the basics. I guess we'll see!