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Cold, sick, exhausted, lonely, crying...but happy. Listening to the Cure, what better way than to get a sentimental fag like me worked up over nothing. I love feeling sentimental. This CD is bringing back memories of last winter. For months, every time I would hear the music I listened to then I would get profoundly sad and nostalgic but I never quite knew why.
Writing a seven page essay from scratch in one night is tough. Writing two in one week, plus tons of other shit, is hell. For a hopeless procrasinator like me anyway. I can't fucking wait for the weekend. After that, no worries.
Last night I was in a really odd state of mind and called Kristy. We talked over different things and I cried a bit, and things shifted. We're officially dating again, after a steady rise from "umfriends" to "Ummm, friends?". The first time around I felt pressured a bit, and still had some unresolved issues in the way. We grew up a bit, but not enough. I love growing up with people. I never had that until recently. It's pure magic...
Wow, the Cure song that just came on is surprisingly fitting...
The Cure- Out of This World
"When we look back at it all as i know we will
You and me, wide eyed
I wonder...
Will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?
And i know we have to go
I realize we only get to stay so long
Always have to go back to real lives
Where we belong
Where we belong
Where we belong"
Well, back to real life. To homework, cold, darkness, illness, loneliness. And a glimpse of something at the edge of our vision. A warm fireplace, a walk in the park, a timeless kiss, the 7th floor of a hospital parking garage. Oh, if only.
Man, I'm lame. Right now I feel like myself more than I ever have before.
Writing a seven page essay from scratch in one night is tough. Writing two in one week, plus tons of other shit, is hell. For a hopeless procrasinator like me anyway. I can't fucking wait for the weekend. After that, no worries.
Last night I was in a really odd state of mind and called Kristy. We talked over different things and I cried a bit, and things shifted. We're officially dating again, after a steady rise from "umfriends" to "Ummm, friends?". The first time around I felt pressured a bit, and still had some unresolved issues in the way. We grew up a bit, but not enough. I love growing up with people. I never had that until recently. It's pure magic...
Wow, the Cure song that just came on is surprisingly fitting...
The Cure- Out of This World
"When we look back at it all as i know we will
You and me, wide eyed
I wonder...
Will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?
And i know we have to go
I realize we only get to stay so long
Always have to go back to real lives
Where we belong
Where we belong
Where we belong"
Well, back to real life. To homework, cold, darkness, illness, loneliness. And a glimpse of something at the edge of our vision. A warm fireplace, a walk in the park, a timeless kiss, the 7th floor of a hospital parking garage. Oh, if only.
Man, I'm lame. Right now I feel like myself more than I ever have before.