No good holiday
I wish this whole winter break would pass now....i was really looking forward to the holidays but now it seems things are falling apart.
I remember a year or 2 ago at a water park in a hot tub chilling with my cousin, talking about personal shit and life its self. I remember asking my cousin asking me if i would ever take anybody else besides her on new years or to Wi Dells which is where the water park resort i was currently at. I said no including my boyfriend because i knew i would take my cousin and only her. Because our bond with each other is special like that but she has a stupid ass boyfriend and rather spend new years and mostly christmas with him instead of me.
I feel so betrayed, depressed, and shocked she choose some boy then me. It feels like im losing her everyday to him. Ive been by my cousins side over 19 years and have been together on special holidays for so long.
I feel so alone and i know ill be alone for most of the holidays even this coming new years...
Im so scared our friendship will end...i wish i can stop crying too.
I just wish this awful nightmare would go away...