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alright this entry is for Alisha and if you don't want to read all that mushy shit then just stop now.
Baby I know that you give a lot to live with me being the way that I am But I will make it all up to you one day when I find my true self and I have controll of myself I will give you the world but for now all I can do is give you my world and right now you are my my world. and that's exactly what you mean to me. You are there for me no matter the topic and how much you have to sacrafice for me you have never complained once. My heppiness was your only worry. But I promise you tat one day all your patience with me will show it's worth and one day all of it will make sense and you will se the real me and you will love it. I know that you love me for me but I don't love me. I know my faults and I know I must change them. I try every day to better myself but you know I don't have much for selfcontrol so it makes things hard but I want to better myself for you most of all because you have changed around your life by just taking my advice you stop doing drugs and you started making the right choices on some things and I know it probably bothers you that I smoke now but I need to to think about things right ow but I promise I wan't let it control my life and when feel that I need it is when I'm gonna stop because I don't need to be stuck on shit like that in my life because have to many issues to be stuck on that but the only thing I want to be tha majorty of my ife is you. And I want you to know that when I start working again that things are gonna change again. We wont have all the time with each other anymore but I will have the cash to make our relationgship seem more like a relationship. I will be able to give you the things that you need to get and I will be able to take you places. I will be able to get my car and then I will be able to pick you up and shit and we can do more than just chill at our houses. But I guess I'm gonna cut tis off early because I need to sleep so I can get up and do a weeks worth of HW in one day. but all in all I promise you that soon enough that you will see what you have been waiting to see and you will realize that waiting so long for me will pay off and you will see that I will do anything for you. I love you baby and your happiness is my only consern and i need you to help me while I do the things I need to do. But baby just know how I feel about you and I want to be the best man I can be to you. I'm willing to change my way of life just to see you happy. Well I'll talk to you later. Love you baby. Muah!!!!!!!
Baby I know that you give a lot to live with me being the way that I am But I will make it all up to you one day when I find my true self and I have controll of myself I will give you the world but for now all I can do is give you my world and right now you are my my world. and that's exactly what you mean to me. You are there for me no matter the topic and how much you have to sacrafice for me you have never complained once. My heppiness was your only worry. But I promise you tat one day all your patience with me will show it's worth and one day all of it will make sense and you will se the real me and you will love it. I know that you love me for me but I don't love me. I know my faults and I know I must change them. I try every day to better myself but you know I don't have much for selfcontrol so it makes things hard but I want to better myself for you most of all because you have changed around your life by just taking my advice you stop doing drugs and you started making the right choices on some things and I know it probably bothers you that I smoke now but I need to to think about things right ow but I promise I wan't let it control my life and when feel that I need it is when I'm gonna stop because I don't need to be stuck on shit like that in my life because have to many issues to be stuck on that but the only thing I want to be tha majorty of my ife is you. And I want you to know that when I start working again that things are gonna change again. We wont have all the time with each other anymore but I will have the cash to make our relationgship seem more like a relationship. I will be able to give you the things that you need to get and I will be able to take you places. I will be able to get my car and then I will be able to pick you up and shit and we can do more than just chill at our houses. But I guess I'm gonna cut tis off early because I need to sleep so I can get up and do a weeks worth of HW in one day. but all in all I promise you that soon enough that you will see what you have been waiting to see and you will realize that waiting so long for me will pay off and you will see that I will do anything for you. I love you baby and your happiness is my only consern and i need you to help me while I do the things I need to do. But baby just know how I feel about you and I want to be the best man I can be to you. I'm willing to change my way of life just to see you happy. Well I'll talk to you later. Love you baby. Muah!!!!!!!