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[kinghenry06]

its been a long time since i've felt the urge to sit down on livejournal and write something about whats making me unhappy. I know exactly what it is and I just dont really know how to express it the best way and i'd rather be vague anyway. College is great, I went to the CRAWL this past weekend, it was a pretty tight frat party at my school and i had a great time, met about four girls, one of which was probably one of the most sexy "my type" girls i've ever seen, so college is in a word, satisfying. it's very satisfying to everything i expected it to be, but there's one thing that im not sure i've been able to handle in the best way and thats where this explanation becomes vague. I'm missing a very important part of me while im here in richmond and it's tearing me up inside. There's one thing I feel that I need more than anything, and it perhaps is something I shouldn't be so relient on but I can help it. today I learned about something that "happened" and it set me back so far, way beyond any progress I may have "made" that the disappointment/incompleteness hit me like a brick. I'm trying to find some way to deal with it but the only way I can ever think to deal with something like this is to try and write a play about it (haha), but in this case it's just not satisfying enough because my writing tends to be too verbose and jumbly. it really is times like this that i just plain wished that you could make the world work like how you wanted it to. the funny thing about this vague entry is that I know one person that could read this and now exactly what it was about...haha, thank God he doesn't have the link.

but all that aside, college is great, I highly suggest everyone go

p.s.
I wonder how many of you think im a drug addict now? btw for all you hayfield people reading this I recently heard that there was a rumor going around last year that I sold COKE to Brandi (the really hot, skeleton lookin bitch) thank God highschool is over.