The More Things Change...
There is this great part in the movie Swingers (if you haven't seen this movie you need to) in which Mike Peters and Rob Livingston are discussing past relationships. Mike has been broken up over a girl that he hasn't heard from in nearly six months that left him and Rob had went through a similar thing not long before Mike did. When Mike asks Rob how he does it, how he just goes on with his life, he says something like: "Well at first it hurts a lot and you never think you'll get over it, but everyday it starts to hurt a little bit less, and then one day you just don't really think about it." It's good advice, well at least I think so.
What brought this up is reading through some of my past journals on Xanga. I didn't have to go to far back to find some about Shannon and how I felt almost three months after that was over, which has now been about six months. It's so true that everyday it hurts a little less. Even though I left her, anyone that has been my friend for a while knows that it was one of the hardest things I ever did, but it was what needed to be done. It can still hurt a little to think about her or look at her pictures, but it's a different kind of hurt now, one that you have for a friend you miss and worry about, but not someone you want to be with or have those feelings for. I love her and her family like my own and I had to give up that family for my own happiness, so it's to be expected that it would still leave a hole in my heart, but everyday it gets smaller and smaller. At this time it seems like it was forever ago that I was part of that, and honestly since March I've been so much better off then I had been for about a year and a half, things are good :)
What brought this up is reading through some of my past journals on Xanga. I didn't have to go to far back to find some about Shannon and how I felt almost three months after that was over, which has now been about six months. It's so true that everyday it hurts a little less. Even though I left her, anyone that has been my friend for a while knows that it was one of the hardest things I ever did, but it was what needed to be done. It can still hurt a little to think about her or look at her pictures, but it's a different kind of hurt now, one that you have for a friend you miss and worry about, but not someone you want to be with or have those feelings for. I love her and her family like my own and I had to give up that family for my own happiness, so it's to be expected that it would still leave a hole in my heart, but everyday it gets smaller and smaller. At this time it seems like it was forever ago that I was part of that, and honestly since March I've been so much better off then I had been for about a year and a half, things are good :)