Open your heart for tears and rejection....
Hello, i haven't really updated in a while... lately i have been hanging out with people, it has been fun... i guess it shows who is truly your friends in the end.... yeah, yep....
i don't really have much to say this time... yeah, mallory and steven sly's wedding didn't go as expected.. but what do you expect out of it all, we all knows who wears the pants in that relationship!!!
yep, and then also, he got to wear a tiara that lit up, and it had a butterfly on it!!
man i can't believe he is such a cool dude!!!.. yeah.... and yeah, i lost my stick, i really liked that onee, but my parents threw it away!! man i had that for the longest time, and it was invincible.... but now i have a new... yep yep yep...
i have realized many people who have made promises with me have either broken them and don't care or don't feel like telling me that they can't keep them at all... maybe i am just not friends with them anymore.. but i guess that doesnt even matter anymore... it isn't like they were that nice of people anyways....
oh yeah, some little kid was looking at mallory's but as we passed by him, man it was so creepy!!!!
i can't believe people his age are already like that, it really makes me mad... people are just too stupid this day and age....
this week i have hung out with, mallory and kelley, matt, matt mallory and kelly, kelley, matt and amanda, and i think that is about it, oh yeah, caitlyn was there for a little bit.. but she hates me....
yep, it has been fun.. better than sitting home and playing runescape....
i haven't played that in a while, maybe i will later today... and my sister is supposed to be coming home sooon to be ready for work, maybe she will just coem home right before she has to go and i wont be yelled at... i havent ate anything today yet... but i might later, that is if i can find anything.....
here is the thought of the day,i don't have a quote i want to use so maybe i will just use a thought.. but this thought was of 2 days ago...
here it is now...
is it alright to do something, even if the decision could cause hurt to someone that is a friend to you?
and by hurt i do not mean physical or anything, i mean more of an emotional thing.. but also, there are times that you think the person it might hurt, that it will actually not hurt them, but then also you can't talk to them about it because in the end the plan might not work out how you thought it would, or maybe they would not see it how you thought they might.... but also, the decision you are going to do seems so right to you, except the part about hurting the friend...
hm... i have to make a cd for kelley to today, i will do that in a little bit... i don't want to mess it up...
oh yeah, i have more song lyrics from songs that no one knows of.. heh heh heh, it must confuse people that look at these... well here are some... and some of them are japanese and some are english songs, but the lyrics i have written are all english.. well here they are now..
"Obsession"
Deep in the night
Far off the light
Missing my headache
Visions of light
Sweeter delight
Kissin' my loveache
How come I must know
where obsession needs to go
How come I must know
where the passion hides its feelings
How come I must know
where obsession needs to go
How come I must know
the direction of relieving
"in the land of twilight, under the moon"
in the land of twilight, under the moon
we dance for the idiots
ring-around-the-roses, jump to the moon
we sing with the castanets
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
now you are watchin' us outside the circle
wanna be in the company
boy, but you are lonely
dance with nobody
run away child, to your hiding place
high and loud, the sound of your bell of the twilight... ringing..
all alone, it rings and echoes in twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
"open your heart"
open your heart
to eternal dimension
open your heart
for love and affection
open your heart
your every emotion
open your heart
for tears and rejection
come to the grace
of heaven's eternal fantasy
come to the grace
of earthly devoted harmony
"key of the twilight"
come with me in the twilight of a summer night for a while
tell me of a story never ever told in the past
take me back to the land
where my yearnings were born
the key to open the door is in your hand
now fly me there
fanatics find their heaven in never-ending storming wind
auguries of destruction be a lullaby for rebirth
consolations, be there
in my dreamland to come
the key to open the door is in your hand
now take me there
I believe in fantasies invisible to me
in the land of misery I'm searchin' for the sign
to the door of mystery and dignity
I'm wandering down the secret sun
come with me in the twilight of a summer night for a while
tell me of a story never ever told in the past
take me back to the land
where my yearnings were born
the key to open the door is in your hand
now take me there
to the land of twilight
"the world"
you are here alone again
in your sweet insanity
all too calm, you hide yourself from reality
do you call it solitude? do you call it liberty?
when all the world turns away to leave you lonely
the fields are filled with desires
all voices crying for freedom
but all in vain they will fade away
there's only you to answer you, forever
in blinded mind you are singing
a glorious hallehujah
the distant flutter of angels
they're all too far, too far to reach for you
I am here alone again
in my sweet serenity
hoping you will ever find me in any place
I will call it solitude when all my songs fade in vain
fly my voice, far away to eternity
"fake wings"
shine, bright morning light
now in the air the spring is coming
sweet blowing wind
singing down the hills and valleys
keep your eyes on me
now we're on the edge of hell
dear my love, sweet morning light
wait for me, you've gone much farther, too far
"aura"
if you are near to the dark
I will tell you 'bout the sun
you are here, no escape
from my visions of the world
you will cry all alone
but it does not mean a thing to me
knowing the song I will sing
till the darkness comes to sleep
come to me, I will tell
'bout the secret of the sun
it's in you, not in me
but it does not mean a thing to you
the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
I hope you see the sun
someday in the darkness
the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
but you can't see the sun
ever in the darkness
it does not much matter to me
"a stray child"
if you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
don't be in doubt and stray
cling to your lonesome folly
now you're too close to the pain
let all the rain go further
come back and kiss me in vain
mother oh do not bother
hear the chorus of pain
taking you back to proper ways
it's so easy to find
if you could remind me
now you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
so I will find you again
kiss you for lonesome folly
"to nowhere"
can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
we just keep dreaming of the land 'cross the river
we are always on the way to find the place we belong
wandering to nowhere, we're padding
down the raging sea
who can cross over such raving wind and water?
on the rolling boat we sit, shivering with coldness
come by an island, come by a hillock,
it's just another place, we paddle on
down the raging sea
but in one morning we'll see the sun
bright shining morning dew singing
they who will search will find the land
of evergreen
can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
we just keep paddling down the sea, up the river
no destination, but we are together
in the silent sadness we're paddling
down the raging sea
down to nowhere
"liminality"
I'll be there by your side
in the land of twilight
in your dream I will go
till we find the sunrise
you are lost in nightmare
deep in blue illusion
one more kiss to wake you up
come be mine, you are mine
I will be there seekin' for liminality
no destinations to see, I wander
in quiet places so dark as eternity
I'm crying, calling your name
I'm searching for you
"a smile that's a bomb"
In a crowd on a city street, shoulders bumping, I'm alone
In an endless prairie, wind blowing hard, I'm alone
I wonder which is the place I'd want to cry?
Drawing two circles, I feel just a little grown-up.
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly smash the extremely tortuous wall?
Perhaps it's because of the kindness
extremely stern people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
Wonder how many times we lively yelled "Nice to meet you"
Wonder how many times we parted, sobbing "Farewell."
Wonder which one is more, if I compare?
Writing an equals sign, I feel just a little grown-up.
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly surpass even extremely sad times?
Perhaps it's because of the sternness
extremely kind people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly break even the extremely tortuous wall?
Perhaps it's because of the kindness
extremely stern people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
I won't forget the really fun times.
I'll never lose this courage and power.
I'll give the extremely lonely person
something hiding behind my lips:
A - Smi - le - That's - A - Bomb!
"sayonara bye bye"
To the supposedly slashed heart the softly crossing wind is gentle
The sunset always wraps the hands that met and clasped each other and goes melting
It's funny This doesn't match My face with yours now
I feel like looking in the mirror
Don't be sad 'Coz it's all right
A "thank you" hides in the casual greeting
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
Till just a while ago I did not speak of tomorrow
I've come to be so gentle that fruitless thoughts increase
But just for now I'd like to a little...
Don't be sad I'll be going
Mistaking it for a loyal greeting, it repeats
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
If it's around two postcards a year I'll catch it
Surely someday someday we will meet
It's all right If you don't return the cd's and the blues' harp it's all right
Don't be sad Don't be sad
Don't show me a face that took a sudden hit
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
whenever I can say congratulations I'd like to try meet you
Don't be sad 'Coz it's all right
A "thank you" hides in the casual greeting
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
If it's around two postcards a year I'll catch it
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
"rashiku ikimasho"
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
I'm betting it all on this game
My heart is pounding with joy
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
Listen, after school today, I saw that trickster
It was love at first sight, he looks like my old flame
Now my head is spinning, don't want to get hurt again
What should I do? But I've decided now
I want to toy with him for a while
I can win his heart with my sailor suit, I'll go with my looks
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
Now this time it's up to me
My heart is pounding so fast
In the age of adolescence, it's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
Listen, over the weekend, I was walking along
And I met an older man. I can have it both ways
I've come to the point, and I feel reasonable
What can I do, with this pain inside
I wonder if I can abandon it
I can win his heart with my sailor suit
I will bet on this game
Lalala
When I find myself wanting to cry, I ring my pocket bell
And read. The rest for a soldier
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your fighting profile
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
I'm betting it all on this game
My heart is pounding with joy
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
"i dont know this songs name.. but it is the english version of the "a smile that's a bomb""
Flowing in the crowd
In a faceless town
I need to feel the touch of a friend
In the country side
I wonder far and wide
The isolation gets me again
I dont know where to go
When I feel like talking all night
Its time to open myself
Do something new
I want to stop and grow up again
Then suddenly my power and confidence are swelling up
Magically errupt
And its all because
The Kindness that I feel
From people I dont even know
Then suddenly my intuition and my wisdom
and then I know
But most of all I sense
the passion I feel from stangers whereever I go
Thank you for waking me up
yep, that is all the songs i can remember for now.. i never realized, some of the lyrics for the japanese ones can be wierd or just plain creeeeeeepy... yep...
my sister is mad at me now.. she has yelled already, i was listening to music and didnt hear her, and so well yeah, i didnt hear her tell me to go and get the cat, and just now i was scared, i was listening to music and heard a knock on my door, it freaked me out for some reason, it was my sister, she gave me something random.. i guess it is to win some "psp" but i don't really care, i will try it later.. yep...
yeah, maybe some people will be on later, because right now no one is on, maybe matt is on runescape, but i do not know.... i haven't played yet today at all....maybe after this i might.. i can't make a cd now, if my sister came in during the middle of it all, she would most likely yell, i will wait until she leaves, well i think she has to work today, oh , that would be like in an hour.. oh well.. yep, well i think this is the end of this entry, i cannot think of anything else for now...
sayonara for now....
i don't really have much to say this time... yeah, mallory and steven sly's wedding didn't go as expected.. but what do you expect out of it all, we all knows who wears the pants in that relationship!!!
yep, and then also, he got to wear a tiara that lit up, and it had a butterfly on it!!
man i can't believe he is such a cool dude!!!.. yeah.... and yeah, i lost my stick, i really liked that onee, but my parents threw it away!! man i had that for the longest time, and it was invincible.... but now i have a new... yep yep yep...
i have realized many people who have made promises with me have either broken them and don't care or don't feel like telling me that they can't keep them at all... maybe i am just not friends with them anymore.. but i guess that doesnt even matter anymore... it isn't like they were that nice of people anyways....
oh yeah, some little kid was looking at mallory's but as we passed by him, man it was so creepy!!!!
i can't believe people his age are already like that, it really makes me mad... people are just too stupid this day and age....
this week i have hung out with, mallory and kelley, matt, matt mallory and kelly, kelley, matt and amanda, and i think that is about it, oh yeah, caitlyn was there for a little bit.. but she hates me....
yep, it has been fun.. better than sitting home and playing runescape....
i haven't played that in a while, maybe i will later today... and my sister is supposed to be coming home sooon to be ready for work, maybe she will just coem home right before she has to go and i wont be yelled at... i havent ate anything today yet... but i might later, that is if i can find anything.....
here is the thought of the day,i don't have a quote i want to use so maybe i will just use a thought.. but this thought was of 2 days ago...
here it is now...
is it alright to do something, even if the decision could cause hurt to someone that is a friend to you?
and by hurt i do not mean physical or anything, i mean more of an emotional thing.. but also, there are times that you think the person it might hurt, that it will actually not hurt them, but then also you can't talk to them about it because in the end the plan might not work out how you thought it would, or maybe they would not see it how you thought they might.... but also, the decision you are going to do seems so right to you, except the part about hurting the friend...
hm... i have to make a cd for kelley to today, i will do that in a little bit... i don't want to mess it up...
oh yeah, i have more song lyrics from songs that no one knows of.. heh heh heh, it must confuse people that look at these... well here are some... and some of them are japanese and some are english songs, but the lyrics i have written are all english.. well here they are now..
"Obsession"
Deep in the night
Far off the light
Missing my headache
Visions of light
Sweeter delight
Kissin' my loveache
How come I must know
where obsession needs to go
How come I must know
where the passion hides its feelings
How come I must know
where obsession needs to go
How come I must know
the direction of relieving
"in the land of twilight, under the moon"
in the land of twilight, under the moon
we dance for the idiots
ring-around-the-roses, jump to the moon
we sing with the castanets
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
now you are watchin' us outside the circle
wanna be in the company
boy, but you are lonely
dance with nobody
run away child, to your hiding place
high and loud, the sound of your bell of the twilight... ringing..
all alone, it rings and echoes in twilight
I will sing for crescent moon
dancing with the castanets
as the end will come so soon
in the land of twilight
"open your heart"
open your heart
to eternal dimension
open your heart
for love and affection
open your heart
your every emotion
open your heart
for tears and rejection
come to the grace
of heaven's eternal fantasy
come to the grace
of earthly devoted harmony
"key of the twilight"
come with me in the twilight of a summer night for a while
tell me of a story never ever told in the past
take me back to the land
where my yearnings were born
the key to open the door is in your hand
now fly me there
fanatics find their heaven in never-ending storming wind
auguries of destruction be a lullaby for rebirth
consolations, be there
in my dreamland to come
the key to open the door is in your hand
now take me there
I believe in fantasies invisible to me
in the land of misery I'm searchin' for the sign
to the door of mystery and dignity
I'm wandering down the secret sun
come with me in the twilight of a summer night for a while
tell me of a story never ever told in the past
take me back to the land
where my yearnings were born
the key to open the door is in your hand
now take me there
to the land of twilight
"the world"
you are here alone again
in your sweet insanity
all too calm, you hide yourself from reality
do you call it solitude? do you call it liberty?
when all the world turns away to leave you lonely
the fields are filled with desires
all voices crying for freedom
but all in vain they will fade away
there's only you to answer you, forever
in blinded mind you are singing
a glorious hallehujah
the distant flutter of angels
they're all too far, too far to reach for you
I am here alone again
in my sweet serenity
hoping you will ever find me in any place
I will call it solitude when all my songs fade in vain
fly my voice, far away to eternity
"fake wings"
shine, bright morning light
now in the air the spring is coming
sweet blowing wind
singing down the hills and valleys
keep your eyes on me
now we're on the edge of hell
dear my love, sweet morning light
wait for me, you've gone much farther, too far
"aura"
if you are near to the dark
I will tell you 'bout the sun
you are here, no escape
from my visions of the world
you will cry all alone
but it does not mean a thing to me
knowing the song I will sing
till the darkness comes to sleep
come to me, I will tell
'bout the secret of the sun
it's in you, not in me
but it does not mean a thing to you
the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
I hope you see the sun
someday in the darkness
the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
but you can't see the sun
ever in the darkness
it does not much matter to me
"a stray child"
if you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
don't be in doubt and stray
cling to your lonesome folly
now you're too close to the pain
let all the rain go further
come back and kiss me in vain
mother oh do not bother
hear the chorus of pain
taking you back to proper ways
it's so easy to find
if you could remind me
now you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
so I will find you again
kiss you for lonesome folly
"to nowhere"
can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
we just keep dreaming of the land 'cross the river
we are always on the way to find the place we belong
wandering to nowhere, we're padding
down the raging sea
who can cross over such raving wind and water?
on the rolling boat we sit, shivering with coldness
come by an island, come by a hillock,
it's just another place, we paddle on
down the raging sea
but in one morning we'll see the sun
bright shining morning dew singing
they who will search will find the land
of evergreen
can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?
we just keep paddling down the sea, up the river
no destination, but we are together
in the silent sadness we're paddling
down the raging sea
down to nowhere
"liminality"
I'll be there by your side
in the land of twilight
in your dream I will go
till we find the sunrise
you are lost in nightmare
deep in blue illusion
one more kiss to wake you up
come be mine, you are mine
I will be there seekin' for liminality
no destinations to see, I wander
in quiet places so dark as eternity
I'm crying, calling your name
I'm searching for you
"a smile that's a bomb"
In a crowd on a city street, shoulders bumping, I'm alone
In an endless prairie, wind blowing hard, I'm alone
I wonder which is the place I'd want to cry?
Drawing two circles, I feel just a little grown-up.
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly smash the extremely tortuous wall?
Perhaps it's because of the kindness
extremely stern people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
Wonder how many times we lively yelled "Nice to meet you"
Wonder how many times we parted, sobbing "Farewell."
Wonder which one is more, if I compare?
Writing an equals sign, I feel just a little grown-up.
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly surpass even extremely sad times?
Perhaps it's because of the sternness
extremely kind people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
Why does the gushing forth of courage and power
unexpectedly break even the extremely tortuous wall?
Perhaps it's because of the kindness
extremely stern people had unexpectedly shown.
T - h - a - n - k - Y - o - u!
I won't forget the really fun times.
I'll never lose this courage and power.
I'll give the extremely lonely person
something hiding behind my lips:
A - Smi - le - That's - A - Bomb!
"sayonara bye bye"
To the supposedly slashed heart the softly crossing wind is gentle
The sunset always wraps the hands that met and clasped each other and goes melting
It's funny This doesn't match My face with yours now
I feel like looking in the mirror
Don't be sad 'Coz it's all right
A "thank you" hides in the casual greeting
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
Till just a while ago I did not speak of tomorrow
I've come to be so gentle that fruitless thoughts increase
But just for now I'd like to a little...
Don't be sad I'll be going
Mistaking it for a loyal greeting, it repeats
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
If it's around two postcards a year I'll catch it
Surely someday someday we will meet
It's all right If you don't return the cd's and the blues' harp it's all right
Don't be sad Don't be sad
Don't show me a face that took a sudden hit
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
whenever I can say congratulations I'd like to try meet you
Don't be sad 'Coz it's all right
A "thank you" hides in the casual greeting
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
If it's around two postcards a year I'll catch it
Sayonara byebye Stay fine
'Coz it's a distinction from me do catch it
"rashiku ikimasho"
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
I'm betting it all on this game
My heart is pounding with joy
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
Listen, after school today, I saw that trickster
It was love at first sight, he looks like my old flame
Now my head is spinning, don't want to get hurt again
What should I do? But I've decided now
I want to toy with him for a while
I can win his heart with my sailor suit, I'll go with my looks
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
Now this time it's up to me
My heart is pounding so fast
In the age of adolescence, it's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
Listen, over the weekend, I was walking along
And I met an older man. I can have it both ways
I've come to the point, and I feel reasonable
What can I do, with this pain inside
I wonder if I can abandon it
I can win his heart with my sailor suit
I will bet on this game
Lalala
When I find myself wanting to cry, I ring my pocket bell
And read. The rest for a soldier
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your fighting profile
Lalala
Never give up, keep on trying
I'm betting it all on this game
My heart is pounding with joy
In the age of adolescence
It's okay to rewrite
What is in your loving profile
"i dont know this songs name.. but it is the english version of the "a smile that's a bomb""
Flowing in the crowd
In a faceless town
I need to feel the touch of a friend
In the country side
I wonder far and wide
The isolation gets me again
I dont know where to go
When I feel like talking all night
Its time to open myself
Do something new
I want to stop and grow up again
Then suddenly my power and confidence are swelling up
Magically errupt
And its all because
The Kindness that I feel
From people I dont even know
Then suddenly my intuition and my wisdom
and then I know
But most of all I sense
the passion I feel from stangers whereever I go
Thank you for waking me up
yep, that is all the songs i can remember for now.. i never realized, some of the lyrics for the japanese ones can be wierd or just plain creeeeeeepy... yep...
my sister is mad at me now.. she has yelled already, i was listening to music and didnt hear her, and so well yeah, i didnt hear her tell me to go and get the cat, and just now i was scared, i was listening to music and heard a knock on my door, it freaked me out for some reason, it was my sister, she gave me something random.. i guess it is to win some "psp" but i don't really care, i will try it later.. yep...
yeah, maybe some people will be on later, because right now no one is on, maybe matt is on runescape, but i do not know.... i haven't played yet today at all....maybe after this i might.. i can't make a cd now, if my sister came in during the middle of it all, she would most likely yell, i will wait until she leaves, well i think she has to work today, oh , that would be like in an hour.. oh well.. yep, well i think this is the end of this entry, i cannot think of anything else for now...
sayonara for now....