Happy Birthday!
Just want to start out this post by saying that even though you don't really want to tell me, no matter how much I want to know, I respect your need for privacy on this issue and I can live (or die, well because lets just face it you and I both know that I dont really want to live :P) with it. As a true friend I will give you the room you need to suppress your feelings until it's over. I have a feeling there is more to this whole situation than what you've told me, or more than what you and I both know. I'm interested only in your greater benefit, and telling me could only result in a greater understanding of this situation, from a point where I can help you to further understand it. You and I understand each other like other people can't.
On a brighter note, today I went to Colin's house for a movie and whatever. He fed me a good BLT and some corn, I was eating Mr. Corn....anyway I'm not totally sure his Mother was too pleased to have been feeding me but whatever. Went to see Anchorman, which wasn't as funny as I expected it to be (it's never funny when you expect it to be) and I wasn't too pleased with it to be perfectly honest. It was still entertaining but it wasn't like "OH MY GOD THATS FUNNY" it was just, well stupid funny in ways that don't really appeal to me. Anyway after that we went back to Colin's house, ate some cookies then went upstairs to watch the That 70s Show and torture Colin. All and all it was a pretty good night.
I'm still a bit miserable and I can't decide whether it's because I just overall know better but I continue to do it anyway, or it's because I know better and it's the fact that I don't attempt to control it.
"I rather be hated than liked." Well one many levels it's true, but sometimes it doesn't really make life any happier. I don't believe in Karma, I've been saying that it would be awesome to die for quite a while, I don't see any progression. In truth, Karma is confusing cause and effect, just because your grandfather dies and you say "Oh my heart is broken" a week later you end up having heart trouble, doesn't necessarily mean that you saying that was a direct cause of it. If anything it would be more plausible for somebody to say that, then start to believe that and do something subconciously that would then come back to bite them in the ass later.
Bah, ignorance is bliss. You all are so unbelievably fortunate to not know any better.
Love,
God
On a brighter note, today I went to Colin's house for a movie and whatever. He fed me a good BLT and some corn, I was eating Mr. Corn....anyway I'm not totally sure his Mother was too pleased to have been feeding me but whatever. Went to see Anchorman, which wasn't as funny as I expected it to be (it's never funny when you expect it to be) and I wasn't too pleased with it to be perfectly honest. It was still entertaining but it wasn't like "OH MY GOD THATS FUNNY" it was just, well stupid funny in ways that don't really appeal to me. Anyway after that we went back to Colin's house, ate some cookies then went upstairs to watch the That 70s Show and torture Colin. All and all it was a pretty good night.
I'm still a bit miserable and I can't decide whether it's because I just overall know better but I continue to do it anyway, or it's because I know better and it's the fact that I don't attempt to control it.
"I rather be hated than liked." Well one many levels it's true, but sometimes it doesn't really make life any happier. I don't believe in Karma, I've been saying that it would be awesome to die for quite a while, I don't see any progression. In truth, Karma is confusing cause and effect, just because your grandfather dies and you say "Oh my heart is broken" a week later you end up having heart trouble, doesn't necessarily mean that you saying that was a direct cause of it. If anything it would be more plausible for somebody to say that, then start to believe that and do something subconciously that would then come back to bite them in the ass later.
Bah, ignorance is bliss. You all are so unbelievably fortunate to not know any better.
Love,
God