crap
it never fails. everytime i get that feeling it sure as shit happens. the way its going down this time id rather fucking get ditched. its not like i did a bunch of work for it but i was the one making plans and they seemed to be going smoothly but i knew it wouldnt pan out the way i wanted. and what the fuck do you know its not happening the way i wanted. i really feel not even second best i feel like ive dropped to number five. thats a pain in the ass, when you are willing to bend over backwards for someone and they wont even bother to text you back unless its good for them. i wish i could forget how i feel and put this effort in someone more worth it. fuck everything.