morel Booster (trip)
Feeling low and spaz-tastic, I decided to take a trip to see Akili, who is now working uber full time (more then 5 days a week)
akili and i went to legends comics and books where i bought the volume 1 of "52"(Rucka) a real time comic about a missing year in the DC universe. IT should be a good read, and i bought volume 8 of Detective Fell (Ellis). And she burned the Entire Natacha Atlas discog she's got this Techno Egyptian bent on her music and its pretty awesome to listen to, IT has totally revamped my Ipod.
Thinking upon the things that have been bothering me:
I think that things with brandi went to-far-too-fast i think we are friends but i doubt that anything will come of it... comparing friends Kili ranks much higher as a friend because HEY she treats me better, she's not mean or abrasive to me and that counts big time.
my parents are begining to wear thin, they are painfully old school and i'm getting sick of it honestly, i would like very much to be a visitor in my own house, and have the ability to invite them for coffee some times mainly i would like to go places and do my own things and just plain Be alone for a while.
that was the thing i liked about rez: I could go and do without having to phone home, 23 years old here! i mean i'm my own person right?
My friends haven't been ignoring me we just drifted apart because we all work on different scheduals, but kili and shelley still poke their heads in and say hi! Marieka to,
I'm planning something for Mikes 1 year i realize the day has come and passed but if mike's been keeping tabs on me (like i know he has) he totally would understand why i'm late getting this plan off the ground, i was thinking we could go to the place where he died and eat some hot dogs drink some pepsi and tell some stories, once i get dates and stuff worked out i'll send out a general face-book hail and get names and stuff
It's raining here, the sound is nice, i lit a candle and some incense its calming, maybe server will protect me?? maybe not, its hard for me not to blindly believe something that makes me feel good, vulnerableness is still there and, i would like it to go away, I'm probably gonna need some more hugs as time goes on.
Secrets: admiration+ respect+ friendship = love... you have friendship... that would explain somethings
our friendship is so deep sometimes i wonder what may come next its exciting
demons: my right foot, it never works right and sometimes it facilitates me tripping over stuff, maybe i should break you so you heal right? whats the 8-ball say?
Sid