Letting Limitations Go
There is something about moving to a new city that gives you the freedom to reinvent yourself. I think, all to often, the changes that engenders are superficial. But the upheaval of a move really throws your status quo for a loop (especially after an extended period of time on the road) and in that time before life settles into new routines, it's easier to accomplish real change. To let go of arbitrary limitations. I've taken great pains with this move to push myself beyond certain patterns of behavior that I've clung to for years, be that because of fear or complacency.
- I have often been a spice wuss. But rather than working on that, I've traditionally just kept my distance from certain foods. I intended to change that with the move and have been taking steps in that direction, training my pallet to accept hotter foods.
- I never properly learned to drive and got a license. I knew that moving to LA would necessitate that changing eventually. Public transit is adequate at best here. I'm not going to start driving classes until I'm working and have some more money coming in, but it's a priority now.
- It has been years since I've been actively involved in any kind of performing. Immediately after high school there was some theater, and a bunch of guest spots with bands around the Boston area. Following that there were Man Ray performances... And then? Not so much. Periodic spoken word gigs years ago. Most of my performance itch was getting scratched by LARP and karaoke, but that really isn't sufficient.
The other night, the beginnings of a musical project started coming together. It may just be a one-off performance thing, or it may turn into something recurring. Either way, it will rock the house and is only the start of madness to come.
- For the last few years I've careened from one relationship into another and haven't really taken the time to date around much. That needed to change. Since G and I split last April, I've had a few flurries of dating, but nothing serious. And that has been good.
Patience has never been my strong suit. And yet I now find myself pursuing a woman where that is crucial. I am facing new challenges in our interactions and it's exhilarating and frustrating at the same time. I don't know where it's going yet, and I likely won't know for a while. I do know, however, that I like her and that's she's worth the wait. The very fact that I've been focusing on all of my dating options, rather than diving into anything singular and intense, makes patience a lot easier to come by.
I have no reason to rush and I have many things to work on.
- I have often been a spice wuss. But rather than working on that, I've traditionally just kept my distance from certain foods. I intended to change that with the move and have been taking steps in that direction, training my pallet to accept hotter foods.
- I never properly learned to drive and got a license. I knew that moving to LA would necessitate that changing eventually. Public transit is adequate at best here. I'm not going to start driving classes until I'm working and have some more money coming in, but it's a priority now.
- It has been years since I've been actively involved in any kind of performing. Immediately after high school there was some theater, and a bunch of guest spots with bands around the Boston area. Following that there were Man Ray performances... And then? Not so much. Periodic spoken word gigs years ago. Most of my performance itch was getting scratched by LARP and karaoke, but that really isn't sufficient.
The other night, the beginnings of a musical project started coming together. It may just be a one-off performance thing, or it may turn into something recurring. Either way, it will rock the house and is only the start of madness to come.
- For the last few years I've careened from one relationship into another and haven't really taken the time to date around much. That needed to change. Since G and I split last April, I've had a few flurries of dating, but nothing serious. And that has been good.
Patience has never been my strong suit. And yet I now find myself pursuing a woman where that is crucial. I am facing new challenges in our interactions and it's exhilarating and frustrating at the same time. I don't know where it's going yet, and I likely won't know for a while. I do know, however, that I like her and that's she's worth the wait. The very fact that I've been focusing on all of my dating options, rather than diving into anything singular and intense, makes patience a lot easier to come by.
I have no reason to rush and I have many things to work on.