A weekend in my head
I make bad choices. The first of these was over a year ago. I regret saying anything to anyone that night, but I had to get to know the people in the band. I shouldent have talked to her.
I spent the weekend in Ireland, I was there for the european championships. We came in 11th on ensemble preference. yay. So I wont bore you with the full story as its fucking dull and rather childish. long story short I didnt do anything stupid and retained my innocence. But sunday wasnt my favourate of experiences.
I felt like shit all day. my self confidence became non exsistant and to be frank it hasnt got any better. For some reason I just felt so low. I done the right thing, I didnt do anything stupid or say anything daft. Had a few pints and went back to my hotel and slept till 10am. I wasnt even that drunk, I was sober enough to drive. Anyway my self-belief if you will, has been drowned and torn asunder (wee TriViuM reference there) its hard to believe in yourself if you dont know what you can do.
I'm gonna train like a fucker this summer. I'm gonna get my lard ass into shape by going to the gym everyday if I can, by playing my pipes as much as possible as I have nothing else to do, and making sure that I keep myself going.
I'm going to need your help, all of you to accomplish this. These words I've uttered before and I always fuck it up and give in. you guys need to help keep me on the course and help make me the best. No One Does It On Thier Own. Since theres no great woman behind me I'll have to rely on you guys.
I'm too angry just to let things continue the way they are. I am going to get as good as I can get if I hit a glass cieling then fine at least I know I've given 100 percent. If not then the sky's the limit.
Cheers
Dan "Stan The Man Levitan" Nevans
I spent the weekend in Ireland, I was there for the european championships. We came in 11th on ensemble preference. yay. So I wont bore you with the full story as its fucking dull and rather childish. long story short I didnt do anything stupid and retained my innocence. But sunday wasnt my favourate of experiences.
I felt like shit all day. my self confidence became non exsistant and to be frank it hasnt got any better. For some reason I just felt so low. I done the right thing, I didnt do anything stupid or say anything daft. Had a few pints and went back to my hotel and slept till 10am. I wasnt even that drunk, I was sober enough to drive. Anyway my self-belief if you will, has been drowned and torn asunder (wee TriViuM reference there) its hard to believe in yourself if you dont know what you can do.
I'm gonna train like a fucker this summer. I'm gonna get my lard ass into shape by going to the gym everyday if I can, by playing my pipes as much as possible as I have nothing else to do, and making sure that I keep myself going.
I'm going to need your help, all of you to accomplish this. These words I've uttered before and I always fuck it up and give in. you guys need to help keep me on the course and help make me the best. No One Does It On Thier Own. Since theres no great woman behind me I'll have to rely on you guys.
I'm too angry just to let things continue the way they are. I am going to get as good as I can get if I hit a glass cieling then fine at least I know I've given 100 percent. If not then the sky's the limit.
Cheers
Dan "Stan The Man Levitan" Nevans