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A comprehensive list of everything i might possibly want to do to change myself:
1. eat less fish and animal products
2. find out what is not tested on animals and switch (shampoo, shower gel, moisturiser, toothpaste, mouthwash, facewash, eczema cream/lotion, perfume, deodorant, mascara, eye-shadow, lipbalm, eye-liner, blusher, washing powder, toilet cleaner, washing up liquid, hand-soap...)
3. buy less unethical clothing etc
4. try switch to fairtrade, organic and locally-sourced foods
5. find a way of recycling in lincoln
6. make more of an effort to hold conversations
7. make more of an effort with my friendships
8. take initiative socially (as opposed to just assuming no-one would ever want to spend time with me and therefore not contact them, causing chicken-and-egg loops)
9. do some kindof voluntary work
10. do a random-act-of-kindness every day
11. make a formal plan of how to tackle depression
12. make a backup plan for if i don't recover and just have to learn to live with depression (where will i live, what/who will be my support system, what will be my occupation, what will be my source of income, what will be my longterm plan, etc)
13. make a selection of career/job plans
14. find a source of income
15. write a book
16. take up more hobbies, become a more interesting person
17. tidy/review my belongings more often
18. become more productive
19. exercise more and achieve a fabulously toned, healthy proportioned body
20. have a more stable rigid eating pattern
21. cut out certain foods
22. overcome emotional eating
23. do something interesting with my hair (cos it has never looked anything other than completely shit)
24. sort out getting contact lenses
25. get electrolysis
26. pay more attention to my appearance (wear makeup more, bother to wash my face more often, brush teeth better, pluck my eyebrows)
27. lose a stone (or 2 or 3), and stay that way (HAHAHA YEAH LIKE THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN JOSIE, though 1 isn't truly unreasonable...)
28. dress better
29. acquire nice underwear
I'm not a perfectionist at all *sarcasm*.
I don't know what my new years resolution should be.
In a typically EDed way i'm most tempted by numbers 19-22, because in the EDed mind, controlling your food and body solves everything. You feel like you're in absolute control of your life, as long as you're eating within your rules and losing weight. You can forget about all your other imperfections because you're so focused on food and weight, everything else fades into insignificance, besides - life will be perfect when you're thin.
That above paragraph sounds absurd to the average person i'm sure. But then numbers 19-29 are all common kindof things women think about as new years resolutions. Vain things, that is. But why? Our lives will not be dramatically better if we start plucking our eyebrows. And i think we focus on these because our society and media give us this illusion that if our image is perfect, we will be perfect. It's the anorexics who take that myth to the extremes, even though they may know better than anyone that it's a myth, out of a desperation to find a way to deal with the shit in their own lives.
1. eat less fish and animal products
2. find out what is not tested on animals and switch (shampoo, shower gel, moisturiser, toothpaste, mouthwash, facewash, eczema cream/lotion, perfume, deodorant, mascara, eye-shadow, lipbalm, eye-liner, blusher, washing powder, toilet cleaner, washing up liquid, hand-soap...)
3. buy less unethical clothing etc
4. try switch to fairtrade, organic and locally-sourced foods
5. find a way of recycling in lincoln
6. make more of an effort to hold conversations
7. make more of an effort with my friendships
8. take initiative socially (as opposed to just assuming no-one would ever want to spend time with me and therefore not contact them, causing chicken-and-egg loops)
9. do some kindof voluntary work
10. do a random-act-of-kindness every day
11. make a formal plan of how to tackle depression
12. make a backup plan for if i don't recover and just have to learn to live with depression (where will i live, what/who will be my support system, what will be my occupation, what will be my source of income, what will be my longterm plan, etc)
13. make a selection of career/job plans
14. find a source of income
15. write a book
16. take up more hobbies, become a more interesting person
17. tidy/review my belongings more often
18. become more productive
19. exercise more and achieve a fabulously toned, healthy proportioned body
20. have a more stable rigid eating pattern
21. cut out certain foods
22. overcome emotional eating
23. do something interesting with my hair (cos it has never looked anything other than completely shit)
24. sort out getting contact lenses
25. get electrolysis
26. pay more attention to my appearance (wear makeup more, bother to wash my face more often, brush teeth better, pluck my eyebrows)
27. lose a stone (or 2 or 3), and stay that way (HAHAHA YEAH LIKE THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN JOSIE, though 1 isn't truly unreasonable...)
28. dress better
29. acquire nice underwear
I'm not a perfectionist at all *sarcasm*.
I don't know what my new years resolution should be.
In a typically EDed way i'm most tempted by numbers 19-22, because in the EDed mind, controlling your food and body solves everything. You feel like you're in absolute control of your life, as long as you're eating within your rules and losing weight. You can forget about all your other imperfections because you're so focused on food and weight, everything else fades into insignificance, besides - life will be perfect when you're thin.
That above paragraph sounds absurd to the average person i'm sure. But then numbers 19-29 are all common kindof things women think about as new years resolutions. Vain things, that is. But why? Our lives will not be dramatically better if we start plucking our eyebrows. And i think we focus on these because our society and media give us this illusion that if our image is perfect, we will be perfect. It's the anorexics who take that myth to the extremes, even though they may know better than anyone that it's a myth, out of a desperation to find a way to deal with the shit in their own lives.