Almost there
So I'm done with classes as an undergraduate. Craziness. All I've left to do is get through finals and I'm done. DONE. I can hardly believe it. What does it all mean? Am I a grown up now? Do I have to be a part of the "real world"? Is there even such a thing?? Wow. What a head trip. I'm almost done with college. COLLEGE. That big scary thing that came after high-school. I'm starting to get excited about all of this. But what am I excited for? I have to go to grad school. I have to get a job after that. But wow. WOW. Losing my mind here. don't know what to think anymore.
I look around at my life and the things I've done in the past four years, and realize that I am in no way the same person I was when I started out, but that I really haven't changed. I'm still me. But somehow "me" is something different than it was four and a half years ago, while still being very much the same. It's very strange to be able to look back and be able to see the kind of person you're molding yourself into. But for all of that I still have no idea where things will go from here. This is such a head trip... I can't even think of what to say anymore.
They told us college would be so hard. But they got the reasons for why it would be completely wrong. And it really was hard. Hard enough that there was a good chance I wasn't going to make it if I didn't find the right path before too long. I'm still getting over it. The best way I can describe it is that you can go on without too much trouble once you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But you're still surrounded by the tunnel. And it's a long time from seeing the light until you're actually out. I can feel it now, that I'm almost out. The air is getting fresher, it's making my spine tingle. I want to scream and run and laugh until I can't move. It's very strange.
I look around at my life and the things I've done in the past four years, and realize that I am in no way the same person I was when I started out, but that I really haven't changed. I'm still me. But somehow "me" is something different than it was four and a half years ago, while still being very much the same. It's very strange to be able to look back and be able to see the kind of person you're molding yourself into. But for all of that I still have no idea where things will go from here. This is such a head trip... I can't even think of what to say anymore.
They told us college would be so hard. But they got the reasons for why it would be completely wrong. And it really was hard. Hard enough that there was a good chance I wasn't going to make it if I didn't find the right path before too long. I'm still getting over it. The best way I can describe it is that you can go on without too much trouble once you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But you're still surrounded by the tunnel. And it's a long time from seeing the light until you're actually out. I can feel it now, that I'm almost out. The air is getting fresher, it's making my spine tingle. I want to scream and run and laugh until I can't move. It's very strange.