If I die and go to hell real soon. It will appear to me as this room.

[kindsmile]

Dietrich, I have what you wanted.

[[private/marginally unhackable]

I overreacted. Natsuo was right about that. I'm not even sure why I overreacted like I did. I felt so hurt; even physically. I've never felt like that before. It was childish of me. Of course he does that sort of thing. He doesn't have ears. I'm, he wouldn't want to do them with me.

I can't stop thinking about it. Seimei was smiling when he told me. He was enjoying it. I never knew he hated me so much. It must take a lot of energy to put up with me like that. I never even thought about it.

It'll be alright, if I just stay away.

I still think what Soubi is doing is selfish; if he's still doing adult things with Kio and saying he loves me. I, someone is going to be hurt. It's better if it's me then Kio. I don't know Soubi as well as he does; I'm not that attached. Everything will be alright as long as I detach myself.

I need to apologize to Soubi for getting so angry though. I really, don't know what to do.
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[text message to Soubi]

Tomorrow morning at the park. Please come.

I'll be waiting.
[/end]