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I hate that summers ending.I hate how fast things and people are changing.I hate how I'm so afraid to start school again.I hate that this is the last weekend of the best summer of my life.I hate how I can't keep a fucking promise to myself.I hate having broken hearts.I hate not ever having enough of anything.I hate how good things always come to an end.I hate that I'm not as strong as I used to be. I hate knowing the fact that I dont have a somebody there for me anymore.I hate not having a job and being a mooch. I HATE how everybody is sad these days. I hate the fact that its a rarity in my life and never goes longer than a month.I hate how I dont put enough effort into anything. I'm fucking sick and tired of ripping myself apart. I hate this stupid war going on. I hate the sense of paranoia. I hate and I'm scared to death to see where my life is going to end up.

How-fucking-ever.......

I LOVE LOVE LOOOVE my friends.I love how I'm finally done with you. I love being able to listen to a happy song with out getting sick to my stomach or crying. I love the weather. I love buffalo chicken. I love how I'm finally going to put 200% into school this year. I love thinking about how much better off I'm going to be. I love that I've taken care of my own drama and put and end to it. I love that I've grown and been able to open up my fucking eyes after this. I LOVED every second of this summer. I love waking up in happy moods.
And Im sorry...but I cant ever stop lovin getting fucked up.