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All guys are the same. All of them. Even the ones who really are the sensitive, romantic, super caring type. They are all the same.
I will always be second best. I'm always "fun while it lasted". But sooner or later, an old fling/ex-girlfriend/something better will always come along, ruining whatever we had, even if it were only an awesome friendship.
You would think that with me being super sensitive/emotional, I would completely avoid getting myself into these situations. I must just always think, "this one will be different."
I swear, I cannot even be friends with a guy. It's either, "I can't see us ever being just friends", or "she'll be jealous", or "the only way I'll get over you is to cut you out of my life completely." Fucking bullshit.
I will always be lead on. My mind will always be toyed with. My feelings will always be tossed around.
It's becoming harder and harder to believe that my prince charming will ever come along and sweep me off of my feet.
I'm obsessed with the idea of true love. I'm in love with the thought of being in love. It must feel so wonderful. It would feel so wonderful to have someone head over heels for me, and only for me.
How do people do it? How do people find the love of their life, their soulmate?
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not expecting to find the man I'll marry in my next relationship, but if it did happen, I wouldn't run. I wouldn't be scared of the thought. I would cherish every minute. Gosh, it must feel so amazing.
I try to stay positive. I try to keep my head held high and a smile on my face. But positive thoughts don't take me to the movies. Positive thoughts don't wipe my tears away when I'm crying, just being a typical girl. Positive thoughts don't call me just to let me know they're thinking about me. And positive thoughts don't keep me warm and from being lonely at night.
I just want to make somebody happy. I merely ask for the same thing in return. That's it.
On a much happier note, I got a new cell phone, finally. LG VX6100. And it's sweet. I finally joined the crowd and got a camera phone. Check it out:
Um, what else? Kalamazoo tomorrow. I love Jenni! She's getting the biggest hug ever, because we're hugging friends now. I wish I could have went out there tonight after work, but tomorrow morning is close enough, I guess.
I will always be second best. I'm always "fun while it lasted". But sooner or later, an old fling/ex-girlfriend/something better will always come along, ruining whatever we had, even if it were only an awesome friendship.
You would think that with me being super sensitive/emotional, I would completely avoid getting myself into these situations. I must just always think, "this one will be different."
I swear, I cannot even be friends with a guy. It's either, "I can't see us ever being just friends", or "she'll be jealous", or "the only way I'll get over you is to cut you out of my life completely." Fucking bullshit.
I will always be lead on. My mind will always be toyed with. My feelings will always be tossed around.
It's becoming harder and harder to believe that my prince charming will ever come along and sweep me off of my feet.
I'm obsessed with the idea of true love. I'm in love with the thought of being in love. It must feel so wonderful. It would feel so wonderful to have someone head over heels for me, and only for me.
How do people do it? How do people find the love of their life, their soulmate?
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not expecting to find the man I'll marry in my next relationship, but if it did happen, I wouldn't run. I wouldn't be scared of the thought. I would cherish every minute. Gosh, it must feel so amazing.
I try to stay positive. I try to keep my head held high and a smile on my face. But positive thoughts don't take me to the movies. Positive thoughts don't wipe my tears away when I'm crying, just being a typical girl. Positive thoughts don't call me just to let me know they're thinking about me. And positive thoughts don't keep me warm and from being lonely at night.
I just want to make somebody happy. I merely ask for the same thing in return. That's it.
On a much happier note, I got a new cell phone, finally. LG VX6100. And it's sweet. I finally joined the crowd and got a camera phone. Check it out:
Um, what else? Kalamazoo tomorrow. I love Jenni! She's getting the biggest hug ever, because we're hugging friends now. I wish I could have went out there tonight after work, but tomorrow morning is close enough, I guess.