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[kindmemory]

i did something rude this morning, and I do regret it. Yesterday someone was going through all kinds of resentment and anger toward my mom, just feeling really nasty and hateful toward her. Not too uncommon but it does not tend to have great results and it isn't much fun. but then I went my merry way as usual with my day

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Moral conscientiosness. (Stef and crew)

[freddie2431]

Something we particularly like about you, is how morally conscientious you are.

To let you in on something, it often concerns us that you may be a bit too hard on yourself.

But still. In this day and age when so many people are so unwilling to look at themselves and their behavior, we just find it refreshing and uplifting to meet someone with a real conscience.

We used to collectively be the same way - some more than others, but it was all the time. Now we often feel like we've 'fallen from grace' by abandoning our mother.....but we actually do aspire to return to that state of looking at ourselves and how we treat others, even when no one else was looking and we might well have gotten away with behavior that was once beneath us.

(In short, you are an inspiration.)

Please do go easy on your (collective) self. Unless we're totally missing something, we feel like at the end of the day you should certainly be able to relax in the assurance that you're a decent human being.

Re: Moral conscientiosness. (Stef and crew)

[kindmemory]

Well, I'm smiling now. I went home and remembered a similar circumstance where I yelled at my mom, and thought how bad it was the next day.

One of my livejournal friends said, "so what, you're not perfect".

I was at least in part thinking of how it would affect me, though. but I guess that's a concern. And honestly I don't ever hear her concerned about how she treats me, she seems to think it's perfect. It's never her, it's what I did that made her treat me like crap.

Eh, lol. thanks. Yah, probly too hard, but recovered I guess.

Re: Moral conscientiosness. (Freddie & Stef)

[freddie2431]

Glad you're feeling better

Re: Moral conscientiosness. (Freddie & Stef)

[kindmemory]

:D Thank you!

[kindmemory]

I have not been on good terms with my mom for a long time. I hit her once, long ago, after my brother had been doing it for a while. Er, you probly didn't need to know that....

I don't know if we'll ever get back on track.

[kindmemory]

Thanks ashley. Same here. It does sound like there is some basis for your relationship getting better, despite the problems.

Maybe if daughters don't go through the crap together, it's not going to ever get real anyway. If you dont' have siblings, it might be less complicated.

I actually was praying for my mom the other morning and then later in the day she left a note on the table asking if anyone had a Bible. Lol, I didn't want to give it to her. I didn't exactly tell her that, I said I thought there was one, she found one anyway in the mean time.

I don't know what would I would do without the internet to pour off steam and vent or whatever, and talk to people. I don't have a good system of venting when I get home alone.

I enjoy talking to you too. :)