A long time love, felt again
I know it's been quite some time since I actually put a real entry in here, but I just figured I would write in here because I've had a pretty life altering expierence this last copple of days. The one woman that I love more than life itself has finally come back into my life, I've missed her so damn much and I know the only reason that she didn't come back to me earlier is because... well it's because I was being an ass hole. I'm so damn pissed off for acting the way I did towards her. She has been and always will be my only true love.
Even though there is still a problem, she's with someone else right now and even though it's driving me absolutly fucking insane I'm going to deal with it and wait for her like I didn't do before. I couldn't see my life being with out her then and I damn sure can't see my life with out her now. Hell all I did when I wasn't with her was think about her, even when we weren't together I thought about her every day, every minute, and every second. It was tearing me apart inside my heart and inside my mind. I know she still loves me just as much as she had in the past, because if she didn't then I don't think she would have been here last night or for that matter I don't think she would have wanted me to sleep next to her either.
She said that she truly wants to be with the guy that she's with right now, I know that and I respect that. I told her I was going to wait for her and I didn't care how long it would take because I didn't care, I know we are ment to be together and I know she does too.
I just have to put this in here, because if it wasn't for a few people I wouldn't have realized exactly how much it is that I still love her. So to Bob-o, My little sis. Lena, and to my mother I thank you all from the bottom of my now once again whole heart. I love you guys for what you have done for me and you honestly have no idea as to how happy you have made me once again, I feel like a whole person and it's all because of you three and I know I'll never be able to thank you enough. I just hope you guys really realize how much what you've done means to me.
Even though there is still a problem, she's with someone else right now and even though it's driving me absolutly fucking insane I'm going to deal with it and wait for her like I didn't do before. I couldn't see my life being with out her then and I damn sure can't see my life with out her now. Hell all I did when I wasn't with her was think about her, even when we weren't together I thought about her every day, every minute, and every second. It was tearing me apart inside my heart and inside my mind. I know she still loves me just as much as she had in the past, because if she didn't then I don't think she would have been here last night or for that matter I don't think she would have wanted me to sleep next to her either.
She said that she truly wants to be with the guy that she's with right now, I know that and I respect that. I told her I was going to wait for her and I didn't care how long it would take because I didn't care, I know we are ment to be together and I know she does too.
I just have to put this in here, because if it wasn't for a few people I wouldn't have realized exactly how much it is that I still love her. So to Bob-o, My little sis. Lena, and to my mother I thank you all from the bottom of my now once again whole heart. I love you guys for what you have done for me and you honestly have no idea as to how happy you have made me once again, I feel like a whole person and it's all because of you three and I know I'll never be able to thank you enough. I just hope you guys really realize how much what you've done means to me.