Realization...this is me
I have come to the realization that I am a lot to handle. I have shit loads of faults and it can be overwhelming at times I'm sure.
From the point of view of a boyfriend or whatever I'm super needy sometimes. I need a lot of attention, physically and emotionally. I'm very jealous of my guy hanging out with other girls, because I can be really insecure. I need affirmation that I'm beautiful and a good person and that I'm liked and/or loved.
I'm an extremely sexual person, but I get paranoid that guys are only after sex and only value my physical attributes. I have very strong opinions about things and I never want to feel like I'm being used or that I'm not valued. I like to feel needed and appreciated and special.
I have a very strong personality and I value my intelligence and independence above all else. I hate being judged on the way I look. Beauty fades on the exterior but beauty on the inside never fades and I want to be known for my inner beauty not just the way I look on the outside. I hate being liked for the way I look, and not for who I am.
I'm very straight-forward and don't like to play games or pretend or hide emotions. I believe in living for the moment and grasping every opportunity life hands you. I have dreams and goals and I don't plan on letting anything stand in the way of what I want.
I care about everyone way more than I probably should. I can't do things that are meaningless. I hate wasting time and doing things that have no point to them.
I live to make people happy. I love doing special things for the people in my life, just so I can see them smile and know that I've touched them. I'll bring someone flowers or do something special for them, even if I barely know them. Sometimes that can freak people out. I can get too involved and want to fix everything for everyone.
I have very old-fashioned values and morals, and sometimes I can be uptight and stubborn in my beliefs. I won't do anything to compromise what I believe or who I am. I won't change myself to fit someone else's agenda, and I won't take bullshit from people for very long. Sometimes I can be a bitch to protect myself or the people I care about.
It takes awhile for me to warm up to people and show my true personality. I can be shy, or scared of getting close to people.
I can be a perfectionist, a neat freak. I can get really upset over little things sometimes. I'm scary as hell when I pms, lol. I can be vain some days and not give a shit what I look like others. I'm self-conscious about my body and the way I look at times. But I'm also confident and I don't care what other people think.
I'm a smart ass, and can talk like a sailor sometimes apparently. But I'm also very girly and prissy other times.
I can be very judgemental, especially towards guys. I've had bad experience, got me some "daddy issues", and I can definitely categorize guys and look for faults in all of them. I know that's not the right way to go though, and I can see people for the individuals they are...there are good and bad people in this world, from both sexes.
I am a very strong person. I can get over anything, even if it seems like the end of the world at the time. I'm a fighter, I hate giving up, I hate failing. I like to help people find their strength.
I'm very "deep", very emotional. I like to find meaning in things...music, art, people, life. I'm spiritual and like to have a lot of things surrounding me that have ties to positivity. I like to feel powerful, and I like to feel like I've made a difference.
I think that faults don't always have to be faults. It's all in the way you perceive them. Faults make you human anyway. No one's perfect. Even if I may be a lot to handle sometimes, I know I'm a good person. Sure there are things I need to work on, but I don't think I need to change who I am, I'm happy with myself.
I'M HAPPY!!
Shout out to Daryl cuz he rocks my world and helped me realize that I'm a beautiful person. LOVE YOU!! And to the rest of my true blues, thank you for always supporting who I am.
From the point of view of a boyfriend or whatever I'm super needy sometimes. I need a lot of attention, physically and emotionally. I'm very jealous of my guy hanging out with other girls, because I can be really insecure. I need affirmation that I'm beautiful and a good person and that I'm liked and/or loved.
I'm an extremely sexual person, but I get paranoid that guys are only after sex and only value my physical attributes. I have very strong opinions about things and I never want to feel like I'm being used or that I'm not valued. I like to feel needed and appreciated and special.
I have a very strong personality and I value my intelligence and independence above all else. I hate being judged on the way I look. Beauty fades on the exterior but beauty on the inside never fades and I want to be known for my inner beauty not just the way I look on the outside. I hate being liked for the way I look, and not for who I am.
I'm very straight-forward and don't like to play games or pretend or hide emotions. I believe in living for the moment and grasping every opportunity life hands you. I have dreams and goals and I don't plan on letting anything stand in the way of what I want.
I care about everyone way more than I probably should. I can't do things that are meaningless. I hate wasting time and doing things that have no point to them.
I live to make people happy. I love doing special things for the people in my life, just so I can see them smile and know that I've touched them. I'll bring someone flowers or do something special for them, even if I barely know them. Sometimes that can freak people out. I can get too involved and want to fix everything for everyone.
I have very old-fashioned values and morals, and sometimes I can be uptight and stubborn in my beliefs. I won't do anything to compromise what I believe or who I am. I won't change myself to fit someone else's agenda, and I won't take bullshit from people for very long. Sometimes I can be a bitch to protect myself or the people I care about.
It takes awhile for me to warm up to people and show my true personality. I can be shy, or scared of getting close to people.
I can be a perfectionist, a neat freak. I can get really upset over little things sometimes. I'm scary as hell when I pms, lol. I can be vain some days and not give a shit what I look like others. I'm self-conscious about my body and the way I look at times. But I'm also confident and I don't care what other people think.
I'm a smart ass, and can talk like a sailor sometimes apparently. But I'm also very girly and prissy other times.
I can be very judgemental, especially towards guys. I've had bad experience, got me some "daddy issues", and I can definitely categorize guys and look for faults in all of them. I know that's not the right way to go though, and I can see people for the individuals they are...there are good and bad people in this world, from both sexes.
I am a very strong person. I can get over anything, even if it seems like the end of the world at the time. I'm a fighter, I hate giving up, I hate failing. I like to help people find their strength.
I'm very "deep", very emotional. I like to find meaning in things...music, art, people, life. I'm spiritual and like to have a lot of things surrounding me that have ties to positivity. I like to feel powerful, and I like to feel like I've made a difference.
I think that faults don't always have to be faults. It's all in the way you perceive them. Faults make you human anyway. No one's perfect. Even if I may be a lot to handle sometimes, I know I'm a good person. Sure there are things I need to work on, but I don't think I need to change who I am, I'm happy with myself.
I'M HAPPY!!
Shout out to Daryl cuz he rocks my world and helped me realize that I'm a beautiful person. LOVE YOU!! And to the rest of my true blues, thank you for always supporting who I am.