Update
Haven't posted in awhile...seems that I only use this to vent and lately I've been either happy or too emotionallly drained to have the energy to type anything at all.
My Seattle trip was so amazing. You have no idea how badly I needed that escape, I only realized it myself when hours after my return I had already sunk back into sadness. It's amazing how much control we let people have over our lives...actually it's more disgusting than amazing.
I feel the need to sever myself from everyone in order to protect myself, but I pay the price of loneliness, which has been cutting so deeply into me lately. I feel totally cut off, and it's by my own hands. I barely see the people I care about, I miss all my friends from MD. Don't get me wrong the Vic High crew is amazing, but there are so many special people that I've left behind. I don't regret any of my decisions, I just wish that I could have taken you all with me, lol.
This time of year is so depressing, I don't want to leave school, I love my school I have had such an amazing experience here and I don't want it to end. I don't want to graduate and say goodbye to everyone, watch as they all move away to University and College. I don't want PR to end, it has been such a huge and amazing portion of my life. Ugh...I guess I'm just scared and I really need a hug...
Sweet they're playing the Buffy theme over the PA..ok off to class...damn Hamlet. I love you all!
My Seattle trip was so amazing. You have no idea how badly I needed that escape, I only realized it myself when hours after my return I had already sunk back into sadness. It's amazing how much control we let people have over our lives...actually it's more disgusting than amazing.
I feel the need to sever myself from everyone in order to protect myself, but I pay the price of loneliness, which has been cutting so deeply into me lately. I feel totally cut off, and it's by my own hands. I barely see the people I care about, I miss all my friends from MD. Don't get me wrong the Vic High crew is amazing, but there are so many special people that I've left behind. I don't regret any of my decisions, I just wish that I could have taken you all with me, lol.
This time of year is so depressing, I don't want to leave school, I love my school I have had such an amazing experience here and I don't want it to end. I don't want to graduate and say goodbye to everyone, watch as they all move away to University and College. I don't want PR to end, it has been such a huge and amazing portion of my life. Ugh...I guess I'm just scared and I really need a hug...
Sweet they're playing the Buffy theme over the PA..ok off to class...damn Hamlet. I love you all!