long time...

[kindembrace]

i've spent the whole week hanging out with my friend rachel (slut). i just said goodbye to her - she's leaving this country for good and is going back to her home country. i was nothing but a bitch to her for a year and i can't believe i was like that. she's a very nice girl and was once upon a time, in high school, a very very close friend of mine. it was sad to say goodbye. it is really starting to hit me that i'm leaving soon. i'm sad as hell. this is making me feel even more depressed.

i actually saw the dirty part of the city today. i went to the train station, which i must say is beautiful inside, but disgusting outside. the homeless are everywhere and since we're foreigners they love to stare at us and follow us. it's such a pity the government does nothing about it.

last night i had so many different cocktails and i got drunk very fast. it was a nice night even though i came home too early.

i don't know what to do tonight. i want to go out, but at the same time i'm feeling too lazy. i'm also really sticky from walking around in the muggy weather all day. maybe i should take a shower.

i'm sad. i miss talking to some people, especially one. i'm starting to see how self involved some people are. they don't even bother to ask how i have been. it is pretty pathetic, but what the hell. they can stay like that, but i hope they know that they'll never get anywhere with that kind of attitude.

i don't know what else to say. i'm feeling lonely as hell.