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[kindaskimpy]

I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. I will not break the way you did. You fell so hard. I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far.

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk.
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me.
Because of you I am afraid.

I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry because you know that's weakness in your eyes. I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life. My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.

I watched you die. I heard you cry every night in your sleep. I was so young... you should have known better than to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else... you just saw your pain. And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything.
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in.
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.
Because of you... I am afraid