you can be my james dean, i'll be your sweet queen

[kindablonde24]

well..i guess a lot has happened. not many people know about it, and if you think you might know..let me just say, you don't. like i said in my last entry, i fucking have so many thoughts..but can't convey them all. so whatever, this entry will probably be just as emo as the last one..though they're both pertaining to different things. so if you don't want to read emo-ness..i suggest you read someone elses journal for right now. one of my best friends screwed me over yet again..and suprise..i forgave her. i'm getting so sick of it..all of it. all the fucking drama and bull shit that goes around at this school. i need to stop trusting people..because then i end up getting hurt and shit. i think one of the things that pisses me off the most..is that she doesn't feel guilty at all for it. cause i know if i did something like that..i'd be falling apart i'd feel so bad. but whatever, maybe she doesn't have a conscience about that sort of thing, i don't know.

every time i think about what i did..i get nauseous. and especially today when i found out some stuff that i got lied to about..i swear to god. and i know if people found out..some people would think what i did is not a big deal..but to me it really, really is. i hope i'll eventually be able to think better of myself..but for right now..i don't. alright, enough for now. i might update when i get a little happier..lol