When is it enough?
[Locked from Scrimgeour and any other Scrimgeour supporters who may or may not have journals, SO not taking any chances here]
How pointless is this?
I still am not entirely sure I'm on the right side, or whether any side is the right side in this blasted war. Freedom, ways of life... isn't everyone fighting for the same thing anyhow?
I don't know anymore.
Stupid Hospital - I'm bored out of my skull and have nothing but time to think.
Sirius and I had a big long argument a little over a month ago.
They kill people to try and get their point across. We apparently toss people into Azkaban to make it look like we're doing something.
...I'm still not convinced that Scrimgeour wasn't hoping that our little contingent to see the Vampires would end up food for fury. He was far far too surprised to see us return in one piece.
That wasn't the first, or the last, time he's sent me and a few others on trips with little to no hope of making it back. It's almost like he's trying to find someone to fight against, and if he can get rid of a few troublemakers in the process, so be it.
But how can I stand behind a government that tosses people into Azkaban because they're trying to sound cool. People who are practically the definition of Harmless, like Stan Shunpike and... gods, there've been so many now - and even one is too many.
What am I doing? I'm stuck behind a desk at the moment, but I won't be forever. It's driving me mad not being able to slip through the cracks, disappiont Scrimmy by coming back alive, and getting more allies rather than more enemies.
And I can't help but wonder how long it'll be before they decide that I, being a metamorph, am a danger or liability, or a spy, and toss me in without trial too.
I had no sides in School, and even though I chose this side afterwards, sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing. I don't know if I should even bother anymore - this war's never going to end, because everyone wants the same thing, and NOBODY seems to see it. Yes, we want to be safe. We want the Wizarding way of life to be preserved, and we want to give others a chance.
Why can't it just End and everyone find a middleground?
Or perhaps I just chose the wrong side after all.
I don't know. I hate this, it's driving me more mad than I already am. Light side, Dark side - it's all magic. Curses may be unforgivable, but are they really evil?
Cruciatus could be used for good, jolts to deadened nerves to bring them back, like muggle electricity.
Imperious could be used to keep someone safe, or help someone overcome a phobia.
Even the Killing Curse can have 'light' uses. Put an animal out of its misery, for example, quick and painless.
edit: It's like.... someone sends a tripping jinx at someone to make them fall down the stairs and kill them. Someone else uses Imperious to stop someone from killing someone else. One's unforgivable, and the other one is evil... but is the Imperious really unforgivable in that kind of situation?
No such thing as Light and Dark, really....
Nothing's absolute. That's the only thing I'm sure of anymore.
How pointless is this?
I still am not entirely sure I'm on the right side, or whether any side is the right side in this blasted war. Freedom, ways of life... isn't everyone fighting for the same thing anyhow?
I don't know anymore.
Stupid Hospital - I'm bored out of my skull and have nothing but time to think.
Sirius and I had a big long argument a little over a month ago.
They kill people to try and get their point across. We apparently toss people into Azkaban to make it look like we're doing something.
...I'm still not convinced that Scrimgeour wasn't hoping that our little contingent to see the Vampires would end up food for fury. He was far far too surprised to see us return in one piece.
That wasn't the first, or the last, time he's sent me and a few others on trips with little to no hope of making it back. It's almost like he's trying to find someone to fight against, and if he can get rid of a few troublemakers in the process, so be it.
But how can I stand behind a government that tosses people into Azkaban because they're trying to sound cool. People who are practically the definition of Harmless, like Stan Shunpike and... gods, there've been so many now - and even one is too many.
What am I doing? I'm stuck behind a desk at the moment, but I won't be forever. It's driving me mad not being able to slip through the cracks, disappiont Scrimmy by coming back alive, and getting more allies rather than more enemies.
And I can't help but wonder how long it'll be before they decide that I, being a metamorph, am a danger or liability, or a spy, and toss me in without trial too.
I had no sides in School, and even though I chose this side afterwards, sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing. I don't know if I should even bother anymore - this war's never going to end, because everyone wants the same thing, and NOBODY seems to see it. Yes, we want to be safe. We want the Wizarding way of life to be preserved, and we want to give others a chance.
Why can't it just End and everyone find a middleground?
Or perhaps I just chose the wrong side after all.
I don't know. I hate this, it's driving me more mad than I already am. Light side, Dark side - it's all magic. Curses may be unforgivable, but are they really evil?
Cruciatus could be used for good, jolts to deadened nerves to bring them back, like muggle electricity.
Imperious could be used to keep someone safe, or help someone overcome a phobia.
Even the Killing Curse can have 'light' uses. Put an animal out of its misery, for example, quick and painless.
edit: It's like.... someone sends a tripping jinx at someone to make them fall down the stairs and kill them. Someone else uses Imperious to stop someone from killing someone else. One's unforgivable, and the other one is evil... but is the Imperious really unforgivable in that kind of situation?
No such thing as Light and Dark, really....
Nothing's absolute. That's the only thing I'm sure of anymore.