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how do you pack up and leave
and flee from place to place so deparately searching for something
if you don't even know what it is that you want?
no, actually i know what i want, i'm just afraid of it.
Maybe that doesn't make sense, but it makes all the sense in the world to me.
it's tuesday and i still didn't get a call informing me about his situation
with his surgeries or anything.
ohh, i've got anxious feelings in my stomach all day from this, and it's barely even left my mind.
ahh, but how could it not?
oh it's not that i'm mad at all,
and as much as i really would rather not say this, but i think i know when to fold.
there's something i dont know, so sources tell me,
and yeah maybe it sucks but baby, ive called
and well, i can take a hint.
that's too bad, cause he really was a complete doll.
i went into town today and im going tomorrow,
but after talking it out with a few people and hearing what they had to say,
i don't believe ill be going to Shepherd. There's nothing wrong with the school,
but i think i'm going to take a semester off to travel and then go to a university.
I don't know what school yet, but i'm going to figure that out or at least have the list i should have made
months ago on what colleges im actually interested in.
right now, all i want to do is travel, and i think a semester off is exactly what i need.
i need a getaway,
even if it's for a day, or two, or 6 weeks, or months,
i need to get this out of my head because it's starting to take a toll ill admit to.
ah. i feel like i have so much to say, and so much to scream,
but i really don't know how to.