sure, i guess that's fine.
i think ive noticed that i talk a lot, but i don't say anything
whenever i get confused, or when i dont want to admit that im uncomfortable.
i think ive realized a lot of things about how i act recently,
and I'm pretty sure i might know why.
its 6:39 in the morning now and i cant sleep.
i really have this thing where i just cant really sleep, and all i really need is a good four hours
to be all right.
I'm at ash kress's house now, and everyone's sleeping with the cute ash behind me on her bed.
ive just been listening to music, thinking about what books to read, and
wondering how much more money i should be giving Faith for her party to pay for the
bands' gas money.
i really am excited for faith's party, because not only is it a chance to get to see a few of the
people i havent seen or talked to in a while, it gives me and megan and whoever else a chance to dance
to a handful of good bands.
and fine, maybe it does have something to do with me being excited to see the adorable guy that
im into as well.
nonetheless, just seeing everyone that i havent seen in a long while is going to be so worth while.
schedules get picked up tomorrow.
one more year of school left.
that's sort of a bittersweet thought.
i already feel like im done with school though, in a way.
i just can't believe that im another step closer to being an adult, i suppose.
for someone who cares about someone else, i could show it a lot more.
i feel horrible for not knowing how to really show that i care about someone as much as i'd like to.
maybe it has something to do with the fact that i never gave a shit to do so with the last
person i actually genuinely cared for, as much as i know that doesn't make sense.
it's with various people too that i feel like i should really make this honest move to show them that i care, whether its a letter or a walk down the street,
or a conversation ive been avoiding, or a phone call, or whatnot,
i should do something.
something something something, i should do something.
i don't think i do the right things, sometimes.
i don't believe that i really deal with anything anymore. i don't know if i have for
a long while, or the last year and a half of my life.
life was so different a year ago, and well if you add a few months.
a year ago, wow.
it's been one year since it's all happened. It feels like a lifetime,
but then again it doesn't. How sad that it still haunts me to this day to the point
where it's a year later, and i still have trouble sleeping.
possibly, maybe.
maybe im just mentally tired and im blabbing on about something that could be said
in one sentence.
maybe im just blabbing on and on about things because i think im starting to admit
that i'm uncomfortable, and confused.
whenever i get confused, or when i dont want to admit that im uncomfortable.
i think ive realized a lot of things about how i act recently,
and I'm pretty sure i might know why.
its 6:39 in the morning now and i cant sleep.
i really have this thing where i just cant really sleep, and all i really need is a good four hours
to be all right.
I'm at ash kress's house now, and everyone's sleeping with the cute ash behind me on her bed.
ive just been listening to music, thinking about what books to read, and
wondering how much more money i should be giving Faith for her party to pay for the
bands' gas money.
i really am excited for faith's party, because not only is it a chance to get to see a few of the
people i havent seen or talked to in a while, it gives me and megan and whoever else a chance to dance
to a handful of good bands.
and fine, maybe it does have something to do with me being excited to see the adorable guy that
im into as well.
nonetheless, just seeing everyone that i havent seen in a long while is going to be so worth while.
schedules get picked up tomorrow.
one more year of school left.
that's sort of a bittersweet thought.
i already feel like im done with school though, in a way.
i just can't believe that im another step closer to being an adult, i suppose.
for someone who cares about someone else, i could show it a lot more.
i feel horrible for not knowing how to really show that i care about someone as much as i'd like to.
maybe it has something to do with the fact that i never gave a shit to do so with the last
person i actually genuinely cared for, as much as i know that doesn't make sense.
it's with various people too that i feel like i should really make this honest move to show them that i care, whether its a letter or a walk down the street,
or a conversation ive been avoiding, or a phone call, or whatnot,
i should do something.
something something something, i should do something.
i don't think i do the right things, sometimes.
i don't believe that i really deal with anything anymore. i don't know if i have for
a long while, or the last year and a half of my life.
life was so different a year ago, and well if you add a few months.
a year ago, wow.
it's been one year since it's all happened. It feels like a lifetime,
but then again it doesn't. How sad that it still haunts me to this day to the point
where it's a year later, and i still have trouble sleeping.
possibly, maybe.
maybe im just mentally tired and im blabbing on about something that could be said
in one sentence.
maybe im just blabbing on and on about things because i think im starting to admit
that i'm uncomfortable, and confused.