the old days r gone.
ok so kimy n marie wanna know wats wrong with me;well if only i knew,huh. well lemme break it down for myself.ok so it started in school ino that much.it was after i read chapter 7 in the book.oh____________________i got it well i think so ok here it goes.well after i read that in started to think me n kimy hardly talk n e more,ya know? i mean we'd be on the phone for hours jus talkin bout the stupidest things and we be constantly laughing that we would almost cry and our stomachs would hurt like crazy.we used to be able to play around with no worries like i'd get jealouse but not like now now it completely consumes me i cry myself to sleep every night jus thinking of this;of why things changed so much why we did.im crying while doing this even.i miss how we do almost anything and not care.i miss how it used to be but we cant really change how we r now it jus happens on its own right?i cant even go jump off a tree without thinking "wat kimmy might say or do if she saw me doin this?" the things we used to do,and even the things we used to say;we take things to seriously now.i try not to and be the way i used to but i just cant cuz of her reaction twards it. i know shes gunna read this and say to herself "i havnt changed" but the truth is u have kimy we both have. now i dont know if its for the better or for the worst but we have.now i know that youve noticed how we've benn argueing alot lately.why do u think that is? cuz ive been askin myself that same question for like the last minth or so;espesially while i was in new york,i mean during those times is when we need eachother most,and all we did was bitch about how we've been disen eachither or some shit like that.i went to get away from the shit thats goin on down here and to have fun.all i did was regret going in the first place imean i already did but i needed some time to myself and i could do it i missed u to much that it hurt,i felt like someone just opened me up and ripped my heart out then stomped all the fuck over it,and when u and i argued or watever u call it i felt as if u began to stab it over and over.see u didnt notice but every time we had a "disagreement" i cried until i fell asleep.but thats all in the past and i learned over the years to not dwell on it cuz if i did i probably wouldnt have lived the past few years that i lived.and then i met u no wait i saw u and then met u over time u and i got closer and u r wat made me confirm my realization that i really was brought on this fuckin planet for a reason and it was u.u r the real reason that im here today no matter wat anyone says.i love you and nothing will ever change that.i would die for u.