Sad complaint

[kimuro]

I have a friend who remains logged into social sites and IM programmes most of the time - which is all well and good when she's the only one using the computer because her name gets greyed when she's been inactive for a time, but she isn't the only one using the computer any more. When I see her active, I like to ping her - say hey and find out if she's up for chatting. But the past few times, someone else has answered and something about this person makes me feel awkward and ... and wrong ... for expecting to find my friend on the other end. It's nothing that I can pin down, but I feel as though there is hostility, as though I'm interrupting her computer time with my inconsequential chatter, as though I'm out of line expecting my friend to want to talk to me. It might just be that I am hypersensitive. It upsets my mental equilibrium when people aren't who I expect them to be and that does make me feel off-footed. (one of my major mistakes on a list was that I couldn't deal with someone who had multiple cyber-nyms. I was was never sure with whom I was communicating.)

It's gotten to the point where I am reluctant to address my friend when I see her on-line because I don't want to deal with the stranger. Was I wrong to let her know of this? Probably.

fwiw, I really really hate that my two best cyber-friends have moved entirely to fb and no longer reside in the lj neighbourhood.