Feb 20, 2006 05:30
Okay, so my life is so incredibly busy right now that half the time I wonder if I've forgotten actually sit down and think about something, you know what I mean? Like when your days and weeks run by so fast that you really don't even know what happened that week. My school work takes a back seat to my pageant preparations and I somehow justify that because I don't have long to get ready and right now there is a TON of things left to do. It just really overwhelms me when I think about it. But the thing is, everything that I do that takes up all of my time...every single thing...is something that I want to be doing. My mom often says, "Well, you complain about being busy. Why don't you cut something out?" Well, honestly mom, what would I cut out? I couldn't cut out BCM and being drama leader. I love being the drama leader. I love drama in general and I want to do that. I definitely couldn't cut out anything having to do with the pageant right now. And being in Miss Alabama has been my lifelong dream. Sorority stuff is like fun stuff. It may keep me busy but it's also fun so that's not something that I want to cut out either. The only thing left is school...and I think we all know that is out of the question lol. Anyway, just keep my in your prayers. I know that so many people out there have more important and more pressing problems and I am not trying to be selfish and self-centered...I hope I'm not coming off that way.
On other news, Benji, my beloved Benji, my best friend in the whole wide world, my companion since 4th or 5th grade is not doing very well. First of all he somehow ended up underneath the next-door neighbors fence. He has never ever tried to get out of the fence, so that confuses me. Then after that he couldn't move his front legs anymore. He's at the vet right now. They did x-rays and said that they didn't see anything wrong...but hello something is wrong. All they're doing is giving him a steroid shot and sending him home tomorrow. I am worried and I want to be home with him because no one loves him and cares about him like I do. I just feel like he needs me home to comfort him and take care of him. Yes, I know I sound pathetic but this dog means so much to me and I've had him for so long. I just don't want him to be in pain and I'm worried about what is wrong. So, be praying for Benji too if you don't mind.
Well, sorry my post sounds super depressing. I promise there are other much happier aspects of my life. I am just not very focused on them right now.