I'm tired...
I'm tired. I am so very tired of being petty; I focus too much of my time and attention trivial and superficial aspects of life. It bores me; it tires me. I want something substancial, something of importance, something interesting and riveting. I want a challenge, one that will hold my attention and force me to do more than ignore it. I want to be part of something in which I cannot achieve perfection. I don't try to do anything anymore; I don't find anything worth my time or effort. My mother asked me this morning, "What happened to you?", and it seems the only answer to that is boredom and indifference. I find myself lacking inspiration and drive to do even the simplest of tasks. What happened to my passion? There was a time when nothing I did was good enough to satisfy me, and the standards that I set for myself were unattainable. Where have those standards gone? They have disappeared into oblivion along with my drive and passion. I don't know what it is I'm looking for. Perhaps this is just a phase that will pass me by; perhaps this is just a phase that I'll be done with in a month. I don't know, and I don't expect anyone else to either.