walk away like im nothing......
"I am not your ball and chain, you can leave if you want....I didn't drag you here, you dragged yourself..."
I am so stupid. AND thank god I am aware of my stupidity. This relationship is making me sick.....it's so unfair.....he told his ex 6 weeks ago that he loves her and misses her........but yet when I tell my "ëx" who really isn't my ex that I miss him, he goes crazy......how could I do this to him bla bla bla.....
Imjinx....his ex is the pink
Pinkgrlpunk: so no its not wrong for me to miss him if i dont tell him
or let him know that
jinxo0osuffix: Can you just please just tell me if latley he's told you
he misses you
jinxo0osuffix: Or that he loves
jinxo0osuffix: you
jinxo0osuffix: That's all I need to know
jinxo0osuffix: I'm not gonna get you in trouble
jinxo0osuffix: With him
jinxo0osuffix: I just wanna know
Pinkgrlpunk: its not about getting me in trouble kim
jinxo0osuffix: For myself
Pinkgrlpunk: its getting late kim
jinxo0osuffix: Please?
jinxo0osuffix: He is
Pinkgrlpunk: i should be getting to bed
jinxo0osuffix: He is
Pinkgrlpunk: for yourself kim , just talk to him
Pinkgrlpunk: ask him straight up
jinxo0osuffix: He lies to me
Pinkgrlpunk: about what?
jinxo0osuffix: About everything
jinxo0osuffix: He'll say "denise messeged me"
Pinkgrlpunk: dont let him , settle his ass down.
jinxo0osuffix: "I didn't write back"
jinxo0osuffix: I cant
Pinkgrlpunk: yeah theres time where i do mesg him first
jinxo0osuffix: That's why I say we weren't meant for eachother
Pinkgrlpunk: but theres also times where he msg me first
jinxo0osuffix: He has never told me that he messeges you
Pinkgrlpunk: never
jinxo0osuffix: Never
jinxo0osuffix: I've never seen him message you
Pinkgrlpunk: yeah theres times were he will msg me first like hey how
are you, what are you doing, or he'll msg me just to bitch about school
jinxo0osuffix: or he'll message you when he's drunk or stoned
jinxo0osuffix: Or when I'm mad at him
jinxo0osuffix: Its like your the one he runs to
Pinkgrlpunk: does he know that we are msg each other right now
jinxo0osuffix: He's asleep
jinxo0osuffix: Ya right
jinxo0osuffix: He wouldn't let me
Pinkgrlpunk: LOl fucking jacob.
Pinkgrlpunk: LOL
Pinkgrlpunk: kim you seem like a sweet girl
Pinkgrlpunk: a very honest, caring person
Pinkgrlpunk: and you probably are.
jinxo0osuffix: Thanks, you seem the same way
Pinkgrlpunk: and being hurt isnt kool at all. i wouldnt want you to be
hurting at all
Pinkgrlpunk: all because of me or because of retarded jacob
jinxo0osuffix: Ya but don't you hurt?
jinxo0osuffix: Aren't you sad?
Pinkgrlpunk: am i sad
jinxo0osuffix: Because you love him, and your heartbroken?
Pinkgrlpunk: i do hurt, i was super duper hurt i was depressed
literally
because he wouldnt answer me when i would ask him if you guys were
together
jinxo0osuffix: I think he still loves you, but he's afraid to get hurt
again
Pinkgrlpunk: i was hurt because it seemed to quick you k now. i hated
you because you gave him what i couldnt.
jinxo0osuffix: What was that??
Pinkgrlpunk: i mean its not that i couldnt make him happy but he hated
things in me that you didnt have
oh noooooo, but I cant get mad for that!!! thats nothing compared to what i "did"...........I have cried myself to sleep these last few days, it fucking hurts me! I admit it! it does! he broke up with me this morning...........I live with him! what am i supposed to do?!?! I am not going back to El Paso...I hate that town, I get the gut feeling of even thinking of going back.........
I should have stayed in phoenix! why the hell was I so dam faithful!?!? he told me...
"what makes you different from other girls is that I can trust you"
well that trust is now gone, and we're nothing.
I don't even know what to feel? shocked? sad? pissed? I don't fucking know!
I am so sick of this shit! I cant even talk to him, about anything........and i hate that......
I don't think I can be with him, but than again I don't think I can be without him either...........
i am so fucking devastated.........
I am so stupid. AND thank god I am aware of my stupidity. This relationship is making me sick.....it's so unfair.....he told his ex 6 weeks ago that he loves her and misses her........but yet when I tell my "ëx" who really isn't my ex that I miss him, he goes crazy......how could I do this to him bla bla bla.....
Imjinx....his ex is the pink
Pinkgrlpunk: so no its not wrong for me to miss him if i dont tell him
or let him know that
jinxo0osuffix: Can you just please just tell me if latley he's told you
he misses you
jinxo0osuffix: Or that he loves
jinxo0osuffix: you
jinxo0osuffix: That's all I need to know
jinxo0osuffix: I'm not gonna get you in trouble
jinxo0osuffix: With him
jinxo0osuffix: I just wanna know
Pinkgrlpunk: its not about getting me in trouble kim
jinxo0osuffix: For myself
Pinkgrlpunk: its getting late kim
jinxo0osuffix: Please?
jinxo0osuffix: He is
Pinkgrlpunk: i should be getting to bed
jinxo0osuffix: He is
Pinkgrlpunk: for yourself kim , just talk to him
Pinkgrlpunk: ask him straight up
jinxo0osuffix: He lies to me
Pinkgrlpunk: about what?
jinxo0osuffix: About everything
jinxo0osuffix: He'll say "denise messeged me"
Pinkgrlpunk: dont let him , settle his ass down.
jinxo0osuffix: "I didn't write back"
jinxo0osuffix: I cant
Pinkgrlpunk: yeah theres time where i do mesg him first
jinxo0osuffix: That's why I say we weren't meant for eachother
Pinkgrlpunk: but theres also times where he msg me first
jinxo0osuffix: He has never told me that he messeges you
Pinkgrlpunk: never
jinxo0osuffix: Never
jinxo0osuffix: I've never seen him message you
Pinkgrlpunk: yeah theres times were he will msg me first like hey how
are you, what are you doing, or he'll msg me just to bitch about school
jinxo0osuffix: or he'll message you when he's drunk or stoned
jinxo0osuffix: Or when I'm mad at him
jinxo0osuffix: Its like your the one he runs to
Pinkgrlpunk: does he know that we are msg each other right now
jinxo0osuffix: He's asleep
jinxo0osuffix: Ya right
jinxo0osuffix: He wouldn't let me
Pinkgrlpunk: LOl fucking jacob.
Pinkgrlpunk: LOL
Pinkgrlpunk: kim you seem like a sweet girl
Pinkgrlpunk: a very honest, caring person
Pinkgrlpunk: and you probably are.
jinxo0osuffix: Thanks, you seem the same way
Pinkgrlpunk: and being hurt isnt kool at all. i wouldnt want you to be
hurting at all
Pinkgrlpunk: all because of me or because of retarded jacob
jinxo0osuffix: Ya but don't you hurt?
jinxo0osuffix: Aren't you sad?
Pinkgrlpunk: am i sad
jinxo0osuffix: Because you love him, and your heartbroken?
Pinkgrlpunk: i do hurt, i was super duper hurt i was depressed
literally
because he wouldnt answer me when i would ask him if you guys were
together
jinxo0osuffix: I think he still loves you, but he's afraid to get hurt
again
Pinkgrlpunk: i was hurt because it seemed to quick you k now. i hated
you because you gave him what i couldnt.
jinxo0osuffix: What was that??
Pinkgrlpunk: i mean its not that i couldnt make him happy but he hated
things in me that you didnt have
oh noooooo, but I cant get mad for that!!! thats nothing compared to what i "did"...........I have cried myself to sleep these last few days, it fucking hurts me! I admit it! it does! he broke up with me this morning...........I live with him! what am i supposed to do?!?! I am not going back to El Paso...I hate that town, I get the gut feeling of even thinking of going back.........
I should have stayed in phoenix! why the hell was I so dam faithful!?!? he told me...
"what makes you different from other girls is that I can trust you"
well that trust is now gone, and we're nothing.
I don't even know what to feel? shocked? sad? pissed? I don't fucking know!
I am so sick of this shit! I cant even talk to him, about anything........and i hate that......
I don't think I can be with him, but than again I don't think I can be without him either...........
i am so fucking devastated.........