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my "rainy" days.
they never seem to disappear and they always seem to last. i dont know whether to avoid them by staying home, or just looking away. taking a different route seems easiest so that i can avoid seeing the rain all together. the rain i so desperately want to get rid of. my rain. isnt peaceful. yet is more of a hatred. i cant be mean. and i cant say anything. all i can do is just pretend that the rain doesnt bother me. but deep down i know that is does and its not going anywhere. a week full of rain is the worst. it happens all day everyday. more than a week i feel myself going insane. i see and feel it everyday. it sinks in and settles. it bothers me but i cant say anything. to anyone. or even so happen mention it. i dont know if its worth getting worked up over. but when something is so deep in you, its hard to avoid. you see it everyday but dont say anything. and when you do it still doesnt change. so how do you know when enough rain is enough rain? rain. is so hard to deal with when you dont want it around. the thought of rain that you feel is even worse. i dont know how im going to deal with the rain but soon my sunny days will come again and no matter what there will always be rainy days.
they never seem to disappear and they always seem to last. i dont know whether to avoid them by staying home, or just looking away. taking a different route seems easiest so that i can avoid seeing the rain all together. the rain i so desperately want to get rid of. my rain. isnt peaceful. yet is more of a hatred. i cant be mean. and i cant say anything. all i can do is just pretend that the rain doesnt bother me. but deep down i know that is does and its not going anywhere. a week full of rain is the worst. it happens all day everyday. more than a week i feel myself going insane. i see and feel it everyday. it sinks in and settles. it bothers me but i cant say anything. to anyone. or even so happen mention it. i dont know if its worth getting worked up over. but when something is so deep in you, its hard to avoid. you see it everyday but dont say anything. and when you do it still doesnt change. so how do you know when enough rain is enough rain? rain. is so hard to deal with when you dont want it around. the thought of rain that you feel is even worse. i dont know how im going to deal with the rain but soon my sunny days will come again and no matter what there will always be rainy days.