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its was 10 days into our relationship....he couldnt be faithful for 10 days! how am i supposed to handle that? You have NO IDEA how many times ive begged him not to hurt me or cheat on me....he knows my past and he promised me SOOOOO many times that he could never do that to anyone!!! I also asked him one day to be the first to tell me if he ever did cheat on me.....well he fucked that up too. I had to find pictures of him cheating on me!! Then he STILL denyed it! After a little time he finally admitted it but i dont think thats good enough for me. He says that it was a just a kiss that meant nothing and he doesnt even remember doing it...(your typical excuses) but that isnt the point...the point it that the lips he was kissing WERENT his girlfriends. I told him in the beginning that you only get one chance with me cuz ive put up with way too many assholes in my past. But here lies the problem...i feel like were supposed to be together. I feel like he just gets me like no one else does, he knows me inside and out and still loves me! lol. He doesnt deserve another chance.....I lose either way. Either i go against my better judgement and everything ive stood for to give him a second chance or try to move on and not think about what could have been. ( which would be incredibly hard to do). Im hurting soooooo bad. I dont know what to do. I NEVER thought HE would do this.....
Im not sure if i have enough left in me to go through this again...ive forgiven guys way too many times for cheating and lying....im in love with erik....but the trust is completely gone.
Im not sure if i have enough left in me to go through this again...ive forgiven guys way too many times for cheating and lying....im in love with erik....but the trust is completely gone.